♣️(The day we finally meet each other)♣️
"That feeling when you meet someone new and all you can think about are all the adventures you want to share with them"
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♣️(21/02/13)♣️
This is the most memorable day of my life. This is the day that we are finally going to meet each other. For the past few days since we know each other, we only communicate via FB msg & SMS. But today shall be the day dat i can finally see u in person & get to know u better, Yayyyy!!!
Actually i am feeling quite nervous to meet up with u. I really dont know what to expect, how to behave etc. Because the truth is i dont really meet up with random people that i chatted with or FB or any other social media sites (of course with the exceptions of Gay Dating apps for the sole purpose of NSA fun). To me, what started off on the net shall remain on the cyber world. And most time then not, it will end up on the net too. Infact i hardly meet anyone off the internet unless it is really necessary. But as for u, i feel different. I feel there is something special about you that i need to know and find out. For yoh, i make the exception. Infact i dont even know why i am so eager & looking foward to meet up with u. Maybe its fate.. Cos i believe in fate. Fate that moves me to go ahead and meet up with you. And while we chat on FB, we both scheduled to meet up at Somerset 313 at 5pm later that day. (I will continue about this on the later part)
♣️(Damian'ology is it pure Coincidences or fate?)♣️
Earlier during the day, i was actually having a simple meet up date at Chinese Garden with a guy who actually likes me. That guy asked me to become his BF, but i told him to give me sometime to consider about it. It is not me being choosy, but its just dat i couldnt bring myself to like him or love him. (After that day, i never meet up with him again.) But here comes the most interesting part; Believe it or not & u can call it as coincidence;That guy that i met earlier was actually 'Damian's Ex BF.' (The same guy that u met at Absolute, had sex with and fall into his love trap).
To make sure that we are talking about the same person, i asked him specifically if his BF are called (Damian The Waffleboy aka Damian Cheong)? And he says yes it is. He even showed me Damian's Facebook as well as his pictures. And indeed we are talking about the same Damian as you've told me before. He & Damian has been together for more than 9 month & they juz broke up a few days ago. He told me that the reason for their break up is because 'Damian has been cheating alot on him by flirting around & sleeping with alot of other guys very very frequently.'
Upon hearing his story, it juz reminds me of you & wat u've told me before about Damian. it is indeed true dat Damian was juz fooling around with u. And considering the fact dat they juz broke up few days ago, it means dat wen Damian had sex with u at absolute & had sex with u again thereafter, he is actually attached & are in a RS with the guy. He even lied to u about being single & at same time he is actually betraying his own BF by having fun with u. The fact dat he was already attached & still fucking around while claiming to be single juz proven him to be a jerk & a total asshole. "If he can do that to his own BF, he can do it to anyone." And it clearly shows dat he is juz making use of u to satisfy his sexual needs. He actually didnt mean it wen he makes all those promises to u abt wanting to be in a RS with u. He is juz sweet talking you to make u believe in him so that he can make use of ur vulnerability. And after knowing the truth about Damian, it juz make me believe dat he is making use of u & are exploiting u sexually because he knows your weakness. And u have already fallen for his trap as u believe in him. So with dat, he make use of u as & wen he feel like it.
♣️(Our First Meet Up)♣️
Actually that day when i arrived, i did saw that u are standing alone staring into space in deep thoughts. U were standing by the railing waiting for me. I took a quick glance at u as i passed by but u did not notice. I felt shy to approach u immediately so i decide to go to the gents to pee, wash my face and cool myself down as i was very very nervous. Then after i cooled down, i pluck up my courage and go over to approach u. I say hi to u & u replied me with the sweetest smile i've ever seen. I can never forget that smile. It was angellic. With the most beautiful dimple on ur cheek. I felt like melting at that moment. But i controlled myself. U were quite shy at that time. And i like that..
♣️(Asking you to be mine)♣️
Then suddenly i asked if u would want to be my BF. I can saw that at that time u are reluctant to say yes. So u told me that u need time to think it over. I was quite dissapointed then, but i understand that its not easy to trust another person after what you've been through. To be frank, At that time, the sole purpose of me asking u to me my BF is to protect you, to look after you and to care for you. I feel deepest sympathy on your plights and I dont want you to be hurt ever again. I dont want you to meet another evil person who will tends to hurt u again as i felt that u are vulnerable at that time.
Then after your dinner, u told me that u want to go home. I told u that i will want to send u back home. But u told me no need as u dont want to trouble me. But i insist to send you home as i felt responsible for ur safety. So finally you relented. We both took the train to Paya Lebar MRT & walk all the way to your housing apartment. While walking, we chatted and joked with each other. Upon reaching your housing estate, we decided to take a breather at Basket Ball Court beside your block.
(The answer - YES)
There we sit down and chat in the dark. That is when u finally say to me that you have something to say to me. Then you give me your answer to my question that i asked earlier about being my bf. I was very nervous. Im a type of person who are scared of rejection. And then suddenly you said yes, you agree to be my BF and would want to be in a relationship with me. I was speechless for a few moment. I felt very very happy. I was dumbfounded and I couldnt believe it. Then u smiled at me & again u say yes u agree to be my BF.
That night We chatted alot. We talked about our expectations, what our likes & dislikes, do's & dont, hobby, dreams etc. As time pass, i realize that it was getting quite late & i need to catch the last train home so i decide to go back. I send you to your lift lobby, I bid u good bye and kiss ur forehead and walked away. Then as i look back, i saw there u were still standing looking as i walk. I was so touched.
The next few days i visit you at your housing estate almost everyday to meet you until late in the night. Though it was quite far Travelling from the west to the east, But im willing to do that as long as i can see you. During my frequent visit, We will go for dinner together, and at times you even treat me to a Vietnamese Cuisine. We will usually sit and chat in the park near your home,we also take a walk hand in hand & chat. We talk about almost everything. It was so romantic. And i also remember piggy back carry you from the carpark few blocks away until to your lift lobby. It was very fun & memorable. Very sweet and cute and it is the most wonderful feelings i've ever felt.
Initially the reason i want to be your BF is because i thought that i just want to protect u. But least did i realize that Cupid Angel Of Love strikes me in the heart. I realize i've actually fallen in love with you. I can sense that you are a wonderful boy. Despite your vainess and child like attitude, i also realize that u are honest, sincere and you are also capable of being a good partner to me. Yes no doubt i did promised to myself that i will never fall in love ever again. As the pain of my last relationship is still hurting me. But i just cant help it. I have fallen too deeply in love with you. So i decided to give myself a chance to love and to be loved. And then i told myself that this is the guy i want to spend the rest of my life with.
After our heart to heart conversation, it was getting late. I have to catch the last train home. So i send you to your lift landing, bid you goodbye, kiss your forehead and walk away. As i walk few steps away, i turn around and there i saw you looking right back at me. We smiled to each other and i continue walking to the mrt to go home. That night we had a long chat on the phone. We discuss about everything and expressing our heartfelt. After talking with you, i went to sleep. That night i had the most peaceful sleep i ever had for a long time. Since that moment on, we both became inseperable
❤️We both agreed to back date our anniversary to the time we first became close. Which is on the 19th February 2014. And that is the date that we both agreed on to officially make it into our anniversary❤️
Labels: 2013, 2014, donaldduck, doraemon, eatpraylove, first met, gays, haig road, Love, patience, paya lebar, perserverance, pride, relationship, ryan, setback, somerset313, story, true story, zayn
(You came in like a Wreaking Ball - You wreak me. You've became more Bolder, Braver)
Its a saturday. A non working day for me. You are not schooling too. Yesterday night arguement is still fresh inside me. It still hurt me seeing you behaving like as if our relationship does not means anything to you. It is very very hurtful for me especially seeing you behaving so strangely for the past 1 week. Coming back late from school. Going out on ur own, never answer my phone calls, hardly reply my msg's. All these arouse my suspicious that something is definitely going on.
We both woke up slightly late today. As usual, we clean up, wash up and do some house chores. It was still awkward between us actually as the previous night arguement is still fresh. Bjt we still try to talk nicely as we want to avoid arguements with esch other. Especially me, i dont wanna drag those hurting anymore. I juz wanna see you behaving as per normal as how we used to be.
At around noon while we are relaxing, Thuy ask me to accompany her to somerset tomorrow which is a sunday (14/09/14) because she got a Modelling Interview. Grabbing this chance to go out together with you, i immediately agree to follow her. Then i asked you to go along too. Then suddenly u told me dat tomorrow, u are going out. I asked where are u going to? But u refused to tell me anything. I was quite surprise because all these while, you have never kept any secrets from me.
No matter what you do, where you go, You will always tell me and will update me whatever details that i need to know. Infact most of the time, wherever we go, we will always go together. We were kind of inseperable as if there is me, there are sure to be you and vice versa. Whatever errands u got to run, you will always ask me along. And same goes for me. Otherwise you will juz stay at home and play your game. You will never go anywhere without me. Let alone to go out anywhere alone. You've never done that.
But then suddenly now u says u need to go out. Then wen i ask to accompany, u firmly says no and u are going out alone. I became very suspicious & agitated because this was so unlike you. You've never go out on ur own. Let alone on a weekend. As normally weekend we will go out together on a date, dinner or movies. Now suddenly u say you wanna go out. I then threatened to follow you wherever u are going if you dont tell me where you are heading to and who are u meeting. I kept pestering you again & agsin to tell me where exactly you are going.
Then finally you told me dat u are meeting up a friend for a while. The meet up wont be long it will be less then an hour excluding the journey to and fro. I kept asking where u are meeting him? But you die die wont tell me where the location is and u warned me not to follow u or you will become angry with me & threatened me with a big quarell if i ever follow u.
I became suspicious. I asked who are u meeting and for what is the meeting about. And what is so urgent about it that you really have to go to meet him as since we alrd had a date fixed to go out to town together the next day. U den juz say dat u are going to meet up a friend. A new friend u juz make via Faceboom & u wont be meeting him for long. And u assure me dat it was just a casual normal meet up. There is no fun & no sex involved. I ask if you can postpone the meet up, to other days instead? As we alrd had a plan. But u says u cant postpone it as ur new friend are moving back to china on Monday & u are meeting him to juz bid him good bye. After that u will talk awhile and you will straight away go to somerset to meet me as promised on time. At 2.30pm
I really cant bear to let u go as seriously i dont trust you & i dont trust that guy. Why?
《David Parker Story》
Because you've cheated me not once, not twice but three time, and dat is those that im aware of. If there is any that im not aware off, then i dont know how many times more have u cheated on me. There is even a serious instance where u betrayed me to the extend of Chatting with a guy named "David Parker" on 'Guy Spy' gay apps while im at work. (We both clearly forbid one another from using any gays apps.) You then exchange contact number with him and continue chatting on 'Wechat'. I believe those chats were flirtatious and contain flirting & arousal chats. God knows, maybe naked pics are even traded or maybe even Cam Sex Chat has already happened. But all along, i was not aware of all these as u behave normally when im around. Nothing indicate your cheating. i did not suspect anything at all because maybe u are very careful when im around. Maybe you have deleted all chats before i return from home. Then one unknown day, while im at work as usual, you invite him over. Clearly with the intention for Fun & Sex. (After further questioning, i found out it is for Oral Sex) you did have the intention for sex and u ask him to fuck your Anal. But on that day he dont want to do any Anal Sex but instead juz want you to suck his dick. So there u were sucking his dick at our Home dat we both lived in, in our room dat we both share together & worse of it all On our bed that we make love at & sleep at. In a room with walls full of our pictures travelling together, our happy moment. And all those can still happened. Dont u feel anything doing such thing while having my pictures all over the room. Doesnt my pic reminds u that u have a BF and u are in a relationship. But i guess ur lust is too huge that u dont care. If that itself can happen, at our own house, room & bed.
How can i ever trust you to not do anything with whoever you are meeting with. And worse, u are meeting him outside and God knows if u are even going to his house to have fun or maybe hotels or even doing in public. No doubt u did say that it is just for a short while. And the meet up is juz a casual clean meet up between 2 friends. But who knows? How am i supposed to know if what u say is true or not?
Last time i used to say, that i dont trust others petople as they will hurt u or take advantage of u. But now, after so many painful lessons from you, i start to realize that it was you who i should be wary off. It was you who i shouldnt trust. Maybe there are others who are not seeking for fun. But god knows its u who initiate it first by asking for dick pic, flirting & asking sexual arousal questions. And furthermore, as u mentioned u juz meet him for 1 hour and u will go off after that, Juz FYI, (Alot of things can happen even in a short period of time. If In this case which is 1 hour, a whole full set of Sex Sessions inclusive of Oral, Foreplay, Penetration with all different styles can easily happen and even have extra time for shower too)
I really dun want to let you go. As i am afraid u will cheat & betray me again. Im afraid u will succumb to temptations and had sex with the guy. And what im most afraid of is that u will develope personal feelings for that person and start to fall for him. And then u will leave me for him. I cant let that happened. I have sacrifies & invested so many things into this relationship. I cant let any tom, dick or harry to juz snatch you away from me so easily. I have to fight for my rights. Regardless of weather u still love me or not. I will juz leave it to hope and fate. Hooefully one day seeing how sincere my love is for u, u will change.
Back to your meeting; this time, u die die insist on going and u say i can never stop you. Be it i like it or not, you will still go to meet him. You even threaten me with a huge quarells if i ever followed you. I have no choice. I cant stop u. So im forced to juz agree and let you go. Because even if i forbade u, u will still go. As you've shown the sign of rebellious & sturboness this few days.
I was really hurt at that point of time. U have seems to become more & more bolder and braver dis days. U didnt even care about my feelings anymore. You disregards my position as your bf and u never think about how i feel at that time. U dare to arrange for a meet up with a random guy. First u start to chat with random, then u stop me totally from checking your phone. U wont allow me to even touch your phone, then you start to download all the gay apps & chat with those fun seekers. U even exchange numbers. Then u start coming back late, never ans my calls, never reply my msg's nkw u became more bolder by arranging to meet up. First is Eugene (I assume), now is this guy.
Whatsoever am not letting this off so easily. I cannot let myself be in the dark. Since you've become so secretive with everything, i decided to do it my own way. So secretly i make a plan & remind myself dat i try to follow u secretly tomorrow and find out wat exactly are u up to? I want to know who is this damn guy? What is so good & special about him untill u became so rebellious towards me & refuse to listen to me at all. I am so determine to find that out by hook or by crook...
(T.B.C)
Labels: bolder, braver, breakup, cheating, dkssapointment, eatpraylove, hearbreak, infidelity, isuues, trust, unfaithful
(Sun 14th Sept 2014)
(The Spy Game - The 22.5km Journey)
Today is the day. A day where i have to find out the truth about him. No matter how painful the truth is, i must know. I rather be hurt by the truth then comfort with a lie. At one point, i even told myself that if this is what it takes for me to finally hate him, then i would. All these while despite what he did, how badly he treat me, how many times he cheated on me, i juz cant hate him enough. I did try to hate him. But my love for him is too strong that i can never hate him. Its really hard. Maybe this is just me, i am not a person with hatred. So maybe if today is the day where i get to find out something really bad, & witness it myself, maybe i can finally have a reason to really hate him, can leave him & finally able to move on. Of course deep inside me i wouldnt want any bad things to happen. A small side of my heart was actually hoping he is indeed telling the truth, and are really juz meeting a friend for a friendly chat and nothing else.
Today i woke up earlier then usual. As i have already secretly planned yesterday, i will want to secretly follow him to wherever he is going to & whoever he is meeting today. No matter what, I must find out everything today by hook or by crook & of course without his slightest knowledge.
Well time is still about 10am, It is still abit too early as everyone is still sound asleep. Infact he is also still soundly asleep beside me as i can still hear his light Snores. So while im lying down, i took my phone and opened up my FB to check my notification. As i was scrolling through my news feed, i noticed that someone has tag 2 Instagram picture of him on his FB wall.
At first i thought it was some spam tagging. Out of curiosity, i go over to see his FB wall. I browse through & saw that there is a guy named (Wee Leong Tay) that just tagged 2 pictures of u on instagram & it was posted to your FB wall. I dont really need to look hard. Juz by a little glance i can know that the person in the picture is indeed you. But who is that person beside you & who is this guy that tag you? How are u guys related? Feeling something Amiss i took a closer look at the 2 pictures and noticed that you are wearing the same clothes as the day u claimed to go out to meet Eugene, next the place is exactly at Somerset opposite Marina Mandarin gallery. I then go over to "Wee Leong's" instagram profile and saw there it was, 2 picture of "You and him", and another picture is of "Wee Leong & Eugene" all at the same exact spot.
So all along, since last friday u have been hiding these facts from me. You think dat i will never found out. The fact that you not only meet up with Eugene, but also with this Wee Leong guy too. Last friday when i asked, you told me dat u went over juz meet Eugene only, You didnt mention there was another person involved. I also did specifically ask is there anyone else u meet up with. But u say no.
But the pictures that i saw today seems to tell a different story. Because logically if u really meet up with Eugene (with whatever the shit reason it is,) at least there must be a photo of you & Eugene together. But instead its juz pictures of u and Wee Leong & 1 picture of "Eugene & Wee Leong". My guess is that it must have been you who help take to the picture of them both. And then, it is Eugene's who took the picture of "you & Wee Leong" Even this is just a simple matter, but it shows how dishonest u are towards me. U use another lie to cover up a lie. I decide to just keep quiet about this as i dont want my plan for the day to be affected.
By the time, u've already woken up. As usual fiddling with ur phone, playing your FB. And im preety sure u've also seen those pictures that u were tagged on. But i just pretend not to know anything and go ahead to shower.
I have to do everything fast before you. I need to be ahead of you today. So after shower, i get changed. By time it is already 11.30am. Then i purposely wait for u to finish shower. I dont want to go out way too early before u. U saw me get dressed and ask me where am i going. I lied saying im meeting up with my sister for awhile and will meet up as usual at Somerset at 2.30pm later. But in actual fact, i need to leave before you so dat i can hide somewhere nearby & monitor you.
i den left at about 11.45am and hide between some vehicles infront of our apartment gate. I make sure i wont miss seeing u. Den moment later, i saw u walking out fast and go towards Shaw Plaza. I then followed u fm behind but at same time keep a safe distance away. Safe enough not to lose u and well hidden so as not to get spotted by u. U took the escelator up, so i assume u are going to take the bridge to cross the road. I did not follow u. But instead i hide myself under the bridge stairs. After seeing u pass by, i then follow u from a far distance. Once i saw u fully down from the bridge, then i pick up my speed. I saw u run towards the bus stop and saw u rushing to board bus 145. I then rushed over, fortunately i am able to board the bus at last minute without u noticing me. In the bus u sat somewhere near the back, while I sit somewhere i front blocked by the pilllar, where u cant see me.
Upon reaching Toa Payoh Interchange, i quickly alight and hide among some pillars while watching u. I saw u alight and head towards Toa Payoh Mrt Station. I followed suit. U then board the train towards Jurong East Mrt. I boarded the same train at last minute at the cabin next to you. Juz 1 door away. All along i make sure u are within sights. I wouldnt want to lose u as im not sure which station u will alight at.
Then wen the train reaches Marsiling MRT, i saw u getting ready to alight. I carefully follow u from a distance away. And saw u exit the gantry. U then stand at the control station area looking around like finding for someone. All along i was watching ur every move behind a pillar. Then 5 minutes later i saw u walking towards the side exit if the station.
I peeped behind the pillar and saw u walking towards a bespectacled Chinese Guy wearing an oversized yellow tees & black shorts. I saw u talking to him. Then the guy look over your shoulder and saw me peeping. He pointed out to you. Wen u turn to see, i hide away. The guy suspecting something is amiss, lead you away towards the block of flats. U followed him all along while the guy kept looking back. Knowing ive been spotted by him, i juz follow you and him. U guys was walking in circles. That guy are clearly freaking out. You both were walkinv towards Marsiling Central. I followed all the way. Then at a traffic light is wen u finally saw me.
U looked shocked to see me. Maybe u didnt expect me to follow u all the way to Marsiling. Neither do i, i never expect you to be so desperate to travel so far just to meet this guy. You signalled to me asking me to leave. I refused & ignored you. I've come this far. There is no way im giving up. Insread I keep following u boyh from a distance. I notice as u were walking u were telling him something.
Then suddenly u came towards me. U ask me to go back. U will meet me later at somerset. i ignored u totally. U then scolded me saying if i dont go home, u will never talk to me again. Again i ignored u. I then walk towards the guy and approach him. U became scared. U are afraid i might hurt that guy. That guy also look freak out. He was prespiring all over. Instead of losing my temper (I wish i have punch him & break his face dat day) but i didnt. I maintained my cool & introduce myself as your friend to him, and tell him to look after you well. Then i ask u both to go ahead. I still follow from behind up till Marsiling Hawker Centre.
Thre i saw u draw out money from your POSB. Then you both find a seat in the hawker centre. While he was ordering his food, i approach the table. Surprisingly u ask me if i wanna join for lunch. The guy also came and offered me to eat togethdr. But I declined. Instead i remind u about our appointment later. U assured me u will be there on time. Then i walk away and go took a taxi to Boon Lay.
Whatever happens after i left i dont really know. I did ask you what u do after eating, u says u guys juz talk then go off alrd. Ur explaination were inconsistent. somewhere deep inside me i feel that there is a sort of intimacy going on between you and him but i chose to ignore it and give u a benefit of a doubt. So i juz let it pass.
Until about 2 week later when i come across your message to Wee Leong. The conversation goes as follows;
You: I miss your Sperm Taste, if i know im going to miss you like this, i will let you Anal me raw that time.
He: What The ....???
You: I will wait for you to come back.
He: Dont wait, by the time i come back, maybe we both already have a BF.
You: Even if i have a BF, i will still have sex with you. Raw..
He: Hahaha!!
(Judging by this concersation alone can make anyone suspicious. Anyone will sure knows, u actually did suck his dick & infact swallow his sperm, thats why u say u miss his sperm taste. And u flirtatiously trying to make him fuck you. Wen i ask, u says those were just jokes. Am not sure abt that. If its real, maybe it happens either the 1st time u met with him at Somerset, or the time at Marsiling. Either way i felt terribly hurt)
Whatsoever, on that day, u arrive Somwrset a it late and i arrive even later.
Later that night, we sit down and talk then i probed u firther about "Wee Leong" & dig in deeper, then u finally told me. Actually u are supposed to juz meet Wee Leong at somerset but coincidently, he also set up a meeting with his another friends which turns out to be eugene. So that is how u get to meet eugene and spoke to him.
So it happens after talking with Eugene for a while, Eugene then decided go off to go somewhere else. So its juz left u & Wee Leong. I dunno where did u guys go, wat u guys did on dat day cos i dun wanna know.
Days juz keep getting harder. U became morr daring & bolder. I gets angrier. We quarells and argue often. Most times, u will put the blame on me. But little did u know, all these over thinking, over control are all caused by your cheating & infidelity.
Labels: Dispensable, dissappintment, eatpraylove, hurt, tears, unfaithful
