(Sun 14th Sept 2014)
(The Spy Game - The 22.5km Journey)
Today is the day. A day where i have to find out the truth about him. No matter how painful the truth is, i must know. I rather be hurt by the truth then comfort with a lie. At one point, i even told myself that if this is what it takes for me to finally hate him, then i would. All these while despite what he did, how badly he treat me, how many times he cheated on me, i juz cant hate him enough. I did try to hate him. But my love for him is too strong that i can never hate him. Its really hard. Maybe this is just me, i am not a person with hatred. So maybe if today is the day where i get to find out something really bad, & witness it myself, maybe i can finally have a reason to really hate him, can leave him & finally able to move on. Of course deep inside me i wouldnt want any bad things to happen. A small side of my heart was actually hoping he is indeed telling the truth, and are really juz meeting a friend for a friendly chat and nothing else.
Today i woke up earlier then usual. As i have already secretly planned yesterday, i will want to secretly follow him to wherever he is going to & whoever he is meeting today. No matter what, I must find out everything today by hook or by crook & of course without his slightest knowledge.
Well time is still about 10am, It is still abit too early as everyone is still sound asleep. Infact he is also still soundly asleep beside me as i can still hear his light Snores. So while im lying down, i took my phone and opened up my FB to check my notification. As i was scrolling through my news feed, i noticed that someone has tag 2 Instagram picture of him on his FB wall.
At first i thought it was some spam tagging. Out of curiosity, i go over to see his FB wall. I browse through & saw that there is a guy named (Wee Leong Tay) that just tagged 2 pictures of u on instagram & it was posted to your FB wall. I dont really need to look hard. Juz by a little glance i can know that the person in the picture is indeed you. But who is that person beside you & who is this guy that tag you? How are u guys related? Feeling something Amiss i took a closer look at the 2 pictures and noticed that you are wearing the same clothes as the day u claimed to go out to meet Eugene, next the place is exactly at Somerset opposite Marina Mandarin gallery. I then go over to "Wee Leong's" instagram profile and saw there it was, 2 picture of "You and him", and another picture is of "Wee Leong & Eugene" all at the same exact spot.
So all along, since last friday u have been hiding these facts from me. You think dat i will never found out. The fact that you not only meet up with Eugene, but also with this Wee Leong guy too. Last friday when i asked, you told me dat u went over juz meet Eugene only, You didnt mention there was another person involved. I also did specifically ask is there anyone else u meet up with. But u say no.
But the pictures that i saw today seems to tell a different story. Because logically if u really meet up with Eugene (with whatever the shit reason it is,) at least there must be a photo of you & Eugene together. But instead its juz pictures of u and Wee Leong & 1 picture of "Eugene & Wee Leong". My guess is that it must have been you who help take to the picture of them both. And then, it is Eugene's who took the picture of "you & Wee Leong" Even this is just a simple matter, but it shows how dishonest u are towards me. U use another lie to cover up a lie. I decide to just keep quiet about this as i dont want my plan for the day to be affected.
By the time, u've already woken up. As usual fiddling with ur phone, playing your FB. And im preety sure u've also seen those pictures that u were tagged on. But i just pretend not to know anything and go ahead to shower.
I have to do everything fast before you. I need to be ahead of you today. So after shower, i get changed. By time it is already 11.30am. Then i purposely wait for u to finish shower. I dont want to go out way too early before u. U saw me get dressed and ask me where am i going. I lied saying im meeting up with my sister for awhile and will meet up as usual at Somerset at 2.30pm later. But in actual fact, i need to leave before you so dat i can hide somewhere nearby & monitor you.
i den left at about 11.45am and hide between some vehicles infront of our apartment gate. I make sure i wont miss seeing u. Den moment later, i saw u walking out fast and go towards Shaw Plaza. I then followed u fm behind but at same time keep a safe distance away. Safe enough not to lose u and well hidden so as not to get spotted by u. U took the escelator up, so i assume u are going to take the bridge to cross the road. I did not follow u. But instead i hide myself under the bridge stairs. After seeing u pass by, i then follow u from a far distance. Once i saw u fully down from the bridge, then i pick up my speed. I saw u run towards the bus stop and saw u rushing to board bus 145. I then rushed over, fortunately i am able to board the bus at last minute without u noticing me. In the bus u sat somewhere near the back, while I sit somewhere i front blocked by the pilllar, where u cant see me.
Upon reaching Toa Payoh Interchange, i quickly alight and hide among some pillars while watching u. I saw u alight and head towards Toa Payoh Mrt Station. I followed suit. U then board the train towards Jurong East Mrt. I boarded the same train at last minute at the cabin next to you. Juz 1 door away. All along i make sure u are within sights. I wouldnt want to lose u as im not sure which station u will alight at.
Then wen the train reaches Marsiling MRT, i saw u getting ready to alight. I carefully follow u from a distance away. And saw u exit the gantry. U then stand at the control station area looking around like finding for someone. All along i was watching ur every move behind a pillar. Then 5 minutes later i saw u walking towards the side exit if the station.
I peeped behind the pillar and saw u walking towards a bespectacled Chinese Guy wearing an oversized yellow tees & black shorts. I saw u talking to him. Then the guy look over your shoulder and saw me peeping. He pointed out to you. Wen u turn to see, i hide away. The guy suspecting something is amiss, lead you away towards the block of flats. U followed him all along while the guy kept looking back. Knowing ive been spotted by him, i juz follow you and him. U guys was walking in circles. That guy are clearly freaking out. You both were walkinv towards Marsiling Central. I followed all the way. Then at a traffic light is wen u finally saw me.
U looked shocked to see me. Maybe u didnt expect me to follow u all the way to Marsiling. Neither do i, i never expect you to be so desperate to travel so far just to meet this guy. You signalled to me asking me to leave. I refused & ignored you. I've come this far. There is no way im giving up. Insread I keep following u boyh from a distance. I notice as u were walking u were telling him something.
Then suddenly u came towards me. U ask me to go back. U will meet me later at somerset. i ignored u totally. U then scolded me saying if i dont go home, u will never talk to me again. Again i ignored u. I then walk towards the guy and approach him. U became scared. U are afraid i might hurt that guy. That guy also look freak out. He was prespiring all over. Instead of losing my temper (I wish i have punch him & break his face dat day) but i didnt. I maintained my cool & introduce myself as your friend to him, and tell him to look after you well. Then i ask u both to go ahead. I still follow from behind up till Marsiling Hawker Centre.
Thre i saw u draw out money from your POSB. Then you both find a seat in the hawker centre. While he was ordering his food, i approach the table. Surprisingly u ask me if i wanna join for lunch. The guy also came and offered me to eat togethdr. But I declined. Instead i remind u about our appointment later. U assured me u will be there on time. Then i walk away and go took a taxi to Boon Lay.
Whatever happens after i left i dont really know. I did ask you what u do after eating, u says u guys juz talk then go off alrd. Ur explaination were inconsistent. somewhere deep inside me i feel that there is a sort of intimacy going on between you and him but i chose to ignore it and give u a benefit of a doubt. So i juz let it pass.
Until about 2 week later when i come across your message to Wee Leong. The conversation goes as follows;
You: I miss your Sperm Taste, if i know im going to miss you like this, i will let you Anal me raw that time.
He: What The ....???
You: I will wait for you to come back.
He: Dont wait, by the time i come back, maybe we both already have a BF.
You: Even if i have a BF, i will still have sex with you. Raw..
He: Hahaha!!
(Judging by this concersation alone can make anyone suspicious. Anyone will sure knows, u actually did suck his dick & infact swallow his sperm, thats why u say u miss his sperm taste. And u flirtatiously trying to make him fuck you. Wen i ask, u says those were just jokes. Am not sure abt that. If its real, maybe it happens either the 1st time u met with him at Somerset, or the time at Marsiling. Either way i felt terribly hurt)
Whatsoever, on that day, u arrive Somwrset a it late and i arrive even later.
Later that night, we sit down and talk then i probed u firther about "Wee Leong" & dig in deeper, then u finally told me. Actually u are supposed to juz meet Wee Leong at somerset but coincidently, he also set up a meeting with his another friends which turns out to be eugene. So that is how u get to meet eugene and spoke to him.
So it happens after talking with Eugene for a while, Eugene then decided go off to go somewhere else. So its juz left u & Wee Leong. I dunno where did u guys go, wat u guys did on dat day cos i dun wanna know.
Days juz keep getting harder. U became morr daring & bolder. I gets angrier. We quarells and argue often. Most times, u will put the blame on me. But little did u know, all these over thinking, over control are all caused by your cheating & infidelity.
Labels: Dispensable, dissappintment, eatpraylove, hurt, tears, unfaithful
