Life of a Loner no more

Last Day In KL Pictures

2011-02-17T19:44:00.000+08:00

OMG! I get to eat A&W finally. Aft so many years.

Cannot wait to eat huh!!

Lizza missing the famous Root Beer Float

Us Cam Whoring

Us with our Host (Kak Lin)

Photo Memory Of KL (A&W)

Eugene Also!!

And Lizza Too...

The Bear

Us & The Bear (A&W)

Walking towards Keramat Lekor Stall

The Famous Lekor Stall


Me, Eugene & The Host's

Tired after walking whole day

Boo!!

Lin & Lizza

They grew up together

Fasha & Lizza @ Bus Terminal

Me & Eugene

Last Minute Picture Taking

The Cousins - We are blood related

Lizza, Me & Eugene Last Footstep in KL

Lizza & Eugene

Eugene Bidding Goodbye

Our Last Footstep Together

Nice Pose

3rd Day in KL Pictures

2011-02-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

3rd day in KL, basically we just go shopping and sight seeing. And i told my cousin's dat die die i need to go to KLCC to take some pic there. Well wats the point of going to KL if u dun visit the renowned KLCC. It's one of the tallest building in the world afterall. So we go driving around town, do some last minute shopping where Eugene have to buy some CNY clothing. Then we took some stunning pictures around KLCC and at night we go to the Night market where we get some surveniour for those in singapore.. As usual, i'm gonna let the pics do the talking and let ur imagintion run wild.. Enjoyzzzz!!

Me & Eugene While having our Late Lunch

Menara KLCC.. "Stunning"

Me & Lizza

SINGAPOREANS In KL

Cam Whoring with Lizza "Action Cute Ehk!!"

Chicken Little in KL

Lizza & Eugene

Lizzza & Chicken Little

Emoing

I Look so Small with KLCC at my Back

Nice One Here

Me Tired @ The Night Market


Us in KL night Market with Fasha (The Hostess)

Photos of 2nd day in KL (Actual Event - Lin's Birthday @ Space Club)

2011-02-17T19:09:00.001+08:00

Sorry peeps! Due to my hectic work schedule, i hardly have the time to update my blog. I know dat it might be a little bit too late. But still, a promise is a promise. As i've promised in my previous post, i'm gonna update you all about my 2nd day in KL.. Here it goes lovelies...

Our 2nd Day In KL was awesome partying. Even though i was down with a high fever earlier on dat day, but i still managed to dragged myself out of bed, get changed and attend the event (Kak Lin's Birthday Party). Afterall the sole purpose of us going to KL is for the event. So like it or not, rain or shine, or whatever excuse dat i can ever come up with, i have to go for the event.. (Except dat i did not drink much dat nite due to my fever)

Well peeps, i shall let the picture below tell the story... Enjoyyy!!!

Me With KLCC in my background

Me & Gorgeous Lizza (In her Stunning Nicole Miller Dress)

Us With The Host @ VVIP area in Space Club

Me & My Baby

Ryan & "The Cool" Benjy Wayne

Stop it ehk Eugene - Acting Cute huh!!

Lovely Couple

Cousins

We were like the most Awesome Cliques in Space

Nice People.. Hospitable

Cam Whoring

Chicken Little with Lizza

Me & The Beautiful Marlisa Wayne

Me & The Gothic Chick "Paris"

Beautiful Ladies

Enjoying Ourself..

Marlisa Wayne & Me

Next to be updated is the 3rd day in KL.. I promise to update it as soon as i have the time ok.. Huggies!!

(To Be Continued)

Road Trip (Singapore to Kuala Lumpur)

2011-01-26T21:54:00.005+08:00

Hello Everyone! I'm back as promised. It has been a long time since i actually travel across the Causeway in a Coach. (Except for occasional Johor Trip maybe) otherwise the last time i actually remember going on a long roadtrip is when i was in primary school. I actually took a long Coach ride to "Kelantan"(Where my Aunt used to stay in the past).

For this post, i would like give everyone a little updates on my latest roadtrip to KL (Kuala Lumpur) together with my cousin Lizza & My BF Eugene.. I've posted tons of picture for this post and i hope everyone will enjoy it as much as i do. Here it goes.......

I am very excited for this trip because i've been postponing it alot of time due to my over hectic work schedule and daily life commitments. My cousin across the causeway has been pestering me again and again to go to KL but i have to turn them down Flat.

Deep inside, i've been longing to go on a trip. And now finally, thanks to Lizza for worrying me (Because if i didn't go, she'll be going alone) So i make it as an excuse for me to "Force" myself to go with her.. Hahaha (Actually i wanted to go but i don't have good reason to go with...LoLx)

And now, finally after much thinking and pestering from Lizza, (She even offered to pay for my travel expenses) "Awww So Sweet of her" I decide to go ahead for this trip with her. I call my BF to inform him of my plan. And to my surprise, he wanted to follow me for this trip too.. (Hahaha.. I know he just couldn't let me off his sight for a moment.. He's just afraid that i might hook up with a KL'ians i guess.. Hahahaha) So after informing Lizza of Eugene's intention to follow us for this trip, I inform my superior to apply for leave of absence.

The three of us (Myself, Lizza & Eugene) set the time and date of the trip to (Friday 21st January 2011). (Wohoo!! after so long i finally get a break and for the first time ever i actually get to travel with my BF)..

Day 1 (Friday 21/01/11)

At around 1.30pm, Lizza came and fetch me and Eugene at my house void deck. We took a cab to IMM (Jurong East) to have our "Brunch" Breakfast / Lunch at (Secret Recipe) all thanks to Lizza for the wonderful treat. Then we do some shopping at (Cotton-On) before heading towards (Jurong East Bus Interchange) and take SBS bus (160) which will take us directly to the Woodland Checkpoint.

After clearing the custom, the three of us head down to City Square (Johor Bahru) to do some shopping where i get a (Paul Smith) Tee-Shirt for my Cousin Birthday Gift. Then after shopping, we head down to the Starbucks Coffee for some snacks and coffee.

At around 5.30pm, we hail a cab and head down to (Larkin Bus Terminal) where my cousin Faizal will be waiting for us with the Bus ticket to KL. Thanks to Faizal dat we managed to get the best seat in the Coach at a very cheap price (20 Ringgit each).

At larkin, we shop abit before bidding our farewell to Faizal and board the awaiting Bus which will take us to KL. (We even managed to snapped a few picture with Faizal) We left Larkin at around 7.15pm. Then the super long journey begins....

Lizza, Me & Faizal (3 Cousins)

Faizal & Eugene

Lizza & Me

Me, Lizza Taking a pic with Faizal before departure

The 3 Travellers


Me & Faizal

I never know that the journey from JB to KL to be that long and tiring. Even though the seat was quite comfortable. But try to imagine sitting at a limited enclose place for a long period of time. OMGosh!! It was damn tiring. Halfway through the journey, my fever acted up. I was running a temperature and my head was spinning. I was shivering like hell and feeling very very uncomfortable. But thanks god that i got my BF with me. He look after me throughout the journey. And thank god dat i also bring my iPod with me. At least i can listen to some music.

The journey last for about 5 hours and we make 1 stop in between to go to the toilet. We reached "Bukit Jalil" Bus Terminal (KL) at around 15 minutes past midnight. Thanks to Eugene who activate his Auto Roam on his iPhone so that we can call my cousin to arrange for the pick up. Upon reaching, i called my cousin (Kak Lin) and inform her that we've arrived.

It was easy for my cousin to locate us (Thanks to Eugene's phone again) and after that, all of us took my cousin car and off we go to her house in "Ampang". Actually my cousin wanted to bring us to the Club for a welcome party. But as i'm wearing a bermuda's, we decided to get change first. Furthermore Lizza got some touching up to do.. After getting ourself ready, off we went to "Space Club". Our first clubbing experience in malaysia.. (First night in KL and we already club.. Hahaha)

The clubbing Scene in KL was quite similar to those in Singapore. Except that they were much more Wild in a way.. I don't know how to explain it into words. But i've snapped a few picture while at the welcome party organised specially for Me, Lizza & Eugene. All the people in the picture were the LBGT (Lesbian, Bisexual, Gays & Transexual) community in KL. .let the followin pictures that we took tell the story.. Enjoyzz...

Me With Lizza Middle Finger.. (FCUK)

Singapore AJ's (Eugene & Me)

The Awesome Party People

Eugene, Me & Them

Awesome Welcome Party For Us

They are All Fun People.. We definitely Enjoy Ourself..

The "Guys"

Lizza, Me, Eugene & Our Host

Me Getting a Hug From "Paris" A Nice Girl Indeed

Group Pics Of Us VVIP

Sweet Memories

Nice People

Fasha and Us

Fazlin, Ryan & Lizza (The 3 Cousins)

Eugene, Ryan & Has

We really had a great time..

Candid

I Love it here.. Wanna go there again. SERIOUSLY

We drink, drank and drunk. All the people there was so friendly that they kept cheering for us to drink. Especially Merlisa, Benjy, Has, Paris, Fasha & Fazlin. They kept giving us drink after drink that we were so highly intoxicated. Especially me. I was so drunk that i hardly remember what happen there and how we managed to continue partying at the next location which is directly above "Club Space". I remember i nearly get into fight with an indian guy. But somehow they managed to cool me down. And i even dance like an animal.. OMFG!! And i took some grinding pictures.. Take a look guys.. Ewwww!!

Me & Eugene

Master & Slave

Hahaha.. OMFGucci!!

Oh Gosh!!

Eugene seems to be enjoying it huh!!

Singapore Dance Prowess

Me & Lizza Grinding

OMG!! Like a G6..

WTF! Am i doing...

Acting Cute..

Our 1st day in KL and it was so much fun..

After that, all of us head back home. Seriously! i don't know how we reached home safely. Furthermore all of us were so drunk and we don't know who actually drive the car back home. But i thank god that we were safe and sound. At home, all of us sleep peacefully feeling so drunk. As for me, Lizza & Eugene, we were still excited. We couldn't wait for more. But least did we expect such a welcoming gestures from them. Thanks everyone for making our first night in KL to be the best. It was such an unforgetable experience for the 3 of us (Lizza, Me & Eugene) - (Though we were so drunk to remember anything...hahaha)

(Sex in the City.. Hahahaha)

Work work and more work.. Sigh!!

2011-01-18T21:26:00.003+08:00

It has been awhile since i post any updates on my humble blog. It's all due to my super hectic work schedule and daily life commitments. All thanks to the far distance travelling to and from work every single day that the moment i reached home, the only thing i think about is to rest as much as i can. I don't even have the leisure of free time to do my own personal stuff, let alone to sit infront of my damn phatetic super slow laptop (That deserve a honourable placing in a museum) for a few hours each time just to key in my thoughts into words on my blog.

For this post, i actually write it down on a piece of paper while having my lunch break while at work. At the very least it can save me a couple of hours of mind grilling and editing. Rather then to sit infront of the Lap top to do the thinking while typing which will be very very time consuming.

To me, every single seconds count. I can't affford to waste my time editing and re-editing my post to perfection. (I'm a so called perfectionist okay.. Hehehe..) So i've decided to draft out my thoughts into a piece of paper during my free time at work before keying it into my blog today. Well to my dearest faithful readers, here it goes....

As i've mentioned in my previous posting, I am now currently working for a company called (Weatherford Asia Pacific) located in (Loyang Offshore Supply Base) at far eastern part of Singapore.. The company i'm working for now basically deals with everything that have to do with Oil & Gas industries. It is similar to my previous job at (National Oilwell Varco - N.O.V) accept that the environment now is much more better then the latter. Bottomline, i am "QUITE" happy working here compare to N.O.V (Though it's still too early to tell)

Despite having to travel far everyday (From Lakeside to Pasir Ris, Then from Pasir Ris Back to Lakeside), i feel it's much more better here because i'll be able to instill some sort of discipline onto myself with regards to my daily life routine. For an example: Nowadays, i actually sleep early everyday because i know i have to wake up at 5.30am the next day for work. So i must have enough rest. I also make it a point of going back home straight after work everyday so as to have more rest time at home. And i hardly go out on the weekend lately (A far cry from my past where i club almost every saturday.. I used to be a party animal..) instead i choose to stay at home and watch TV or maybe chat with my god mum.. Sometime my BF will sleepover to accompany me.. Hmm! a good start for me for a new year huh!! And at the same time, i can save more money..

At Weatherford, even though i have to start from below to the basic, i am contented. I am a type of person who actually enjoy the process of climbing up the ladder of sucess right from below. And when i succeed one day, i can look back and be proud of myself that i became sucessful due to my sheer hardwork. Not being a boot licker who polish the boss balls to gain promotions. I am a man of integrity with tight principle. I rather work hard through sweat and blood to achieve my goals rather then taking the short cut or easy way out. Furthermore i can learn along the way and make it as a stepping stone towards my success. (A Learning process indeed)
"Good experience pays better then good qualifications.."

I am also a type of person who like to be appreciated for my hard work. And recently, i got an all praise from (Andrew) one of the "Ang Moh's" engineer on one of the project dat i've been working on lately. He praises me for my ability to do everything down to the every detail. I am very happy that my hard work pays off and it actually motivates me to work harder to regain recognition on my work supremes..

Hmm! enough of work stuff. At the moment, my relationship with my BF has improved tremendously. Both of us actually try to work out certain issues together to improve our relationship. And now we are much more closer. (Baby i just wanna tell you that i love you alot. You means the world to me. I appreciate all your kindness, love, care and concern towards me.. I hope we can be together for as long as time permit us to.. I Love you TTFM baby..)

Today i recieve a text message from my cousin Lizza. She ask me to accompany her to go to Kuala Lumpur this friday for my another cousin Birthday Bash at (Club Sense) Wohooo!! it's been a while since i go overseas. And i've never tried the club at malaysia before.. So i actually agree to acccompany lizza for this trip. This offer was irresistable and i cannot say no..

Well dats all for today. I'll post more in a few days time when i'm back from my KL trip.. I'm so gonna take lots and lots of photos and i'll share it here ok.. So guys and girls.. Never give up, keep coming back here to read my blog and i promise to update more interesting post here..

Lots of Love, Hugs and Kisses

XoXo

Ryan Hiroshi

Being Gay is not a choice

2011-01-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

PRIDE (Color of Destiny)

Being A Gay is Not a Choice.

It's not a disease, It's not a Virus, It's not genetic and it's not a curse. It's about being who we really are.. Being what god create us to be. Being true to ourself and to others, Just being a human who love another human being. Being compassionate. It's what Gay is all about. And i am proud to be what i am born to be.. It's called my DESTINY..

Rihanna - Love The Way You Lie (Part 2) ft. Eminem LYRICS

2011-01-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

Yours Sincerely
Ryan'iel Hiroshi

Tribute To Suziana Bte Md Yatim

2011-01-05T21:32:00.001+08:00

In Loving Memories Of

Suziana Bte Md Yatim

(1981 - 04/01/2007)

Even though 4 years has passed, and you have left us to be with the Almighty ALLAH, Our memories of you are still fresh in our mind, our heart and our soul. You've always been a part of our everyday life. Your demise has bring all of us families and friends much more closer together. We will always remember you Suzi. We miss you like crazy.

(Al Fateha)

Lots of Love

Ryan (Afad) & Hamidah's family

Goodbye 2010 and Welcome 2011

2011-01-04T23:18:00.004+08:00

Me, Myself and I

A very good evening everyone. I am so sorry dat i was unable to update anything for the past few days due to my overly hectic schedule at work. The followings posting are the latest updates on what has been happening lately..

The year 2010 has come to an end and many of us have our individual wishes for the New Year (2011): Good Health, World Peace, Financial Stability & Success, Quit Smoking, To Lose Weight, Better personal Relationship etc etc.

Some people deem this moment an appropriate one to review their past year's achievement, and to see which aspect of their lives might need improvement.

While some may stick to the New Year resolutions they make, while other's break them. It is good to make resolutions. But why wait 365 days to do it? It is common for those who make such resolutions to break them just a few days or weeks later.

Take me for an example. Last year i vows to quit smoking and to lose 8 kg's of my weight in 6 month. Now 6 month later, i am still smoking actively every single day at (1 pack of 20 sticks per day) and gained 3 kg's of body weight (WTF!!) . No one can ever predict what the future has in store for us. And it makes me realise that if we want to make some changes in our lives, be it negative or positive, we can do it at any time of the year. (No need to wait for New Year any resolutions or anything) as long as we do it with strong determinations. We will be able to achieve anything.. ANYTHING...

Our desire and determinations to get rid of negative habits and, at the same time, improve our well-being should be ongoing. We do not have to wait for a certain time of the year to take up such challenges. And if we fail along the way, we should pick ourself up and move on.

"Never ever let a setback pulls you down. Instead make it as a lifeline and treat it as a lesson learn to push you up"

Waiting a whole year just to make resolution is not only senseless, but may worsen the situation. A person addicted to gambling or alcohol should kick such undesirable habits as soon as possible. Any delay or waiting for the "PROPER" time to do so could be DISASTROUS.

It is all right for people who cannot fulfil their resolutions if they have tried their best. But it's a different story for those who does not even making any effort. Whether this year turns out the way you want will depends on your Resolutions - and Determinations.

But i am not denying the fact that that this year, i've set a few specific target to meet in changing my life around. And i am determine to work damn hard in making my wishes for this new year as a reality.

Last Year Countdown (2009), i always say to myself that year (2010) WILL be a better year for me. But in the end, alot of unplesant things happens to me. And i am sure i've mentioned it in my last post for 2010. And this year, i say the same thing for 2011. (I was really hoping that 2011 will be a much better year for me and for everyone).

I am not denying that 2010 also marks a milestone in my career achievement. For an example, while working for K&N (Kuehne & Nagel) for their Marina Bay Sands Hotel Project, I was promoted from a mere installation crew to the position of Assistant Tower Manager. (A position to be desired that holds high respect and responsibility) managing a team of 30 worker under my command in less then 1 month. All thanks to my sheer hardwork and dedication that i managed to achieve it. (Too bad that once the project ended, i was left jobless for a couple of month) how i wished dat i save up all my pay to upgrade myself instead of partying almost every week.. GOD DAMN IT..

Then i landed in various part time jobs to sustained my expensive lifestyle of shopping and never ending partying before landing myself at N.O.V (National oilwell Varco). At first i realy love my job at N.O.V that i put my everything into my job. I dedicate myself to all work related issues. Then i was offered to be converted as full-time company staff (That comes with numerous benefits) But little did i expect that the place was a HELL-ON-EARTH. All thanks to the idiot moronic barbarian bastard (ISFENDI SALLEH) that i lost all interest in that job after barely 6 month there. I lost my cool and off i went to being jobless again.

I seek comfort on the fact that i am a very hardworking individual who always do my job to the best of my ability. And it'll be easy for me get another job anytime. (All the people around me tell me that i don't have to worry because i deserve to be treated better elsewhere) Thanks god for all the prayers and support of those around me i land myself at another job.

All thanks to my previous boss (Mr Hideito) from (Hasse) who have never given up on me. Due to his strong reccomendations, i land myself into a very good job at (Weatherford Asia Pacific) An Oilfield Company located at Loyang Offshore Supply Base. But the only problem is that the distance for me to travel to work was damn far. (Try to imagine travelling everyday from Mon-Fri from Lakeside to Loyang) Whatever it is, i shall be patience. Who knows this time this is the right one for me. (Even though it's still to early to tell, but i shall preserve and work damn hard and prove my worth) I hope that this time round, alot of opportunity will come knocking by before i actually decide on my lifelong career journey.

Now we are in the year 2011. It means i'm gonna turn 29 years old this year. (1 more year and i'm gonna turn 30) As the saying goes, "Time waits for no man" i have not much time left to think about what i actually wanted in life. It's time for me to broadened up my ideas and put it into actions. I must do something about my life. I don't want to be stuck as what i am now. I must do something. I must upgrade myself and i must achieve it in the shortest time possible. And i give myself 1 year at most to decide what i want. After that it's all about actions only. (I hope god the almighty wil guide me through this phase) May i achieve my dreams and be a very sucessful person in whatever i choose to do.. AMIN...

To add up on what i mentioned earlier about RESOLUTIONS, i have a few to add.

1) Get my Bike (Gilerra ST200) As soon as possible. Latest by May 2011.

2) Enroll in BCSS, OPCSS, SSS courses Latest By Dec 2011

3) Get my Class 3 driving licence latest by June 2012

4) Quit Smoking By December 2011 (First i must cut down my intake)

5) Be an active GYM member and work out my muscle especialy my Abs, Chest & Arms

6) Cut down my frequent partying and drinking

7) Save up at least 50% of my monthly income at a fixed savings deposit account

8) Get my own cosy rented apartment latest by June 2012.

9) Change my whole wardrobe

10) Find time and save up to travel around on Back Packing Trip

11) Be a better Muslim, Better Son, Better Citizen & Better Man

(Insyallah with God (ALLAH) help and guidance, i'll be able to achieve all the above..)

Me & Fai Edited

Phew! what a long list i have above huh! Well it's not impossible to achieve it as long as i work hard with determination and patience, i'll be able to achieve it in no time. But at the same time, i also need the help and support of all my friends, families and loved ones.

Relationship wise, i've had my up's and down's. I've had my fair share of sadness and dissapointments. And all that have tought me a very valuable lesson. (Not to put my 100% into anything) afraid that i might get hurt. Well i've not given up on love just yet. Even though i don't deny that being an AJ (GAY) is not that easy (Especially in this typical singapore where most of the boys are materialistic, holistic, vain, out to have fun only, looks really really matters etc etc)

There is still some good soul out there somewhere. And i say this is because, there is still one kind soul who have always been there for me. Patiently waiting with his arm wide open. Loving and caring for me, Loving me & Never got tired of me. That person is none other then my Boyfriend (EUGENE LIM). Despite my coldness towards him, he have never given up on me. Infact it makes his love towards me stronger. Thank you Eugene. I Love you alot. But i hope you'll change yourself for our sake. I am not being selfish towards you. But i want you to be a better person in life and in this relationship. I hope our relationship will be an everlasting one. I Love You Darling.

Me & My BF (Eugene Lim)

Us Again @ Siloso Beach Party 2010

Us Cam Whoring

And for the rest of them who does not make it into my heart, i can only say thanks to you too for teaching me a good lesson that you guys cannot be trusted. I don't lost anything cos thanks god i have everything. But what did you have? "NOTHING" and on top of having nothing, you guys lost me. you guys lost my trust and you guys got everything to lose cos you guys lost someone who have the ability to love you whole heartedly.

"If you cant accept me for my worse, you definitely don't deserve me for my best"

Well dats all for now as i am quite tired after a hard day at work. I will update more soon when i have the free time ok. Below are some pics taken at this year New Year Countdown. I need not elaborate further as the picture tells a thousand words. Enjoy it Everyone.. (Happy New Year Everyone)..

Ryan, Fai, Brad & Eugene Wrist Tag

Me, Shaha & Lizza In Coach Bus

Me and Eugene

Sneak Preview of Me

Lizza Act Cute Huh!!

Me & ShaSha

Picture Perfecto Huh!

Edited Me & Lizza Pocahontas

Me & Halim @ Pre Party Sessions

Eugene & Lizza (Pocahontas)

Ooops!! What's in the pocket? Oh! Ohh!!

Wide Smile of Mine

Me & Sha-Sha (My Childhood Fren)

Eugene & Ryan Hiroshi

The 4 Muskeeters!! LoLx

Me (Ryan) & My Sister (Ann)

The 3 Stooges!! Hahahak

Biting our Tix (Siloso Beach Party 2010)

Me & My Bro (Faizal ID)

Ryan & Lizza (Sweet Ehk?)

Drink, Drank & Drunked Me (WTH!)

Do visit often as there will be more interesting updates to come especially in this new year (2011). A brand new day, a brand new year, A brand new me with a brand new vision)

Lots Of Love From Me To You
Signing Off : Ryan Hiroshi

Merry Christmas

2010-12-25T20:57:00.001+08:00

Me Getting Ready To Go...

Good Evening To All My Faithful Readers and Followers!
What a wonderful Christmas for me and for those around me because this year we decided to celebrate at Goldkist Beach Resort. All thanks to my dearest God Mother and her family.

And most importantly, I recieved the best & the most expensive christmas gift from someone. A (Ermenegildo Zegna Wallet) It was damn expensive. And it cost about $460 SGD.. Wow!! It was much More expensive then the Gucci Wallet that i've been longing for. And i would like to take this chance to express my sincere thanks and gratitute to that person. Thank You So Much.. .

Ermenegildo Zegna Wallet (My Christmas Gift)

I Love This Wallet TTFM.. LoLx

Well today the weather is quite bad cos it has been drizzling (Raining Cat and Dogs) for the whole day. But it doesn't stop us from enjoying ourself. Me and my cousins even went to the Beach for a splashing good time.. We played around and joked around. I even took off my everything and skin dip (NAKED).. hahaha... (It really feels good).. LoLx..

Then after awhile, all of us got tired, then we head back to the chalet to fill our hungry empty stomach. All thanks to my Dearest God Mum for preparing a sumptous dishes for us.. And now here i am sitting by the bed and updating my blog on my phatetic Lap Top (It's time to get a new lap top).. hehehe..

And i am quite thankful cos yesterday i had the chance to actually go for my peaceful time out at one of the water breaker along East Coast Beach. I've always wanted to do that and now finally i had the chance to do so. Although it was just for a short while, but it really give me peace and serenity. Maybe tonite if the weather is good, i'm gonna do it again..

Leaving My Footprint On The Sandy Beach

Me, Myself & I

RYAN.. Dats my Name..

Well dats all for now cos there's nothing much to update. Maybe if i got more things, i'll update again ok..

Best Regards and Wishes
RYAN

New Hairstyle and Colour

2010-12-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

Good Evening Everyone!

Just A Lil Pictorial Updates On My Latest Hairstyle and Colour.. Courtesy of my Personal Hairstylist (Ronald) I really love this new style and especially the colour. It's kinda look greyish. Initially it was a mixed of Ash Grey, Ash Green and Ash Blue.. Then after it faded, the colour became more obvious. It's a shades of Silver Grey.. Seriously.. I Love it TO THE FREAKING MAX.. hahaha.. Next i guess i wanna keep my hair long. As for colour wise, i've yet to decide... Following is the pics of my latest hairstyle...

(Me @ Billie Hair Studio)

(Sweet Smile OF Mine)

Hmm!! Good Looking Rite Me.. ANd I Love This Hairstyle of mine TTFM

I did not fall in love. Love bring me up instead..

2010-12-23T15:52:00.001+08:00

Love Me, Hate Me Or Envy Me

I used to be this desperate guy are always searching for the perfect love. Love was the only thing that gave meaning to this life. When I fall in love, I give myself up completely and dive into the ocean with no second thoughts.

As expected, most of the time I almost drowned because they find my love too overwhelming. I couldn't blame them though. At least they put the misery to an end. With a proper closure, anyone can move on easier.

But there are few that are never strong enough to tell you it's over. And these are the worst kind anyone can ever meet because all they do is take advantage of your love and manipulate you like a doll.

They use you in many ways but never care about how you feel. When you're too close, they want you to back off. But when you're drifting away, they'll make you come back. And everytime you would because you love them.

I went through tough times but I understood love a little better than before. I no longer believe that "we fall in love" because love should lift you up instead. When I am loveable and you love me, it's fair trade. But when I don't deserve any love and you love me, that's unconditional love.

Love cannot be earned. It is a gift that you give to someone without any expectations. I came across this phrase a while back and I find it extremely enlightening.

"The more you love, the more you lose a part of you. Yet you do not become less of who you are. In fact, you end up being complete."

Yours Sincerely
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Ryan Hiroshi

Love Dedications

2010-12-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

(Specially Dedicated To The Love Of My Life. You Know Who You Are.. I LOVE YOU BABY)

The rush of love comes with age. When you are younger, you love with no degree of protection and give up your everything. However, when you're much older. You take things slow and only open up with time when trust is gained.

It's more sensible to love with caution but the thrill and excitement of engaging in a love frenzy is lost when you take precaution. Don't you wish you were a teenager again? (I definitely do)

Being a teenager, you pretty much just want to enjoy the moment rather than think about the future. Like how the saying always go "No regrets, just love". Seriously? But yes, deep down we all want to dive into that crazy and steamy love affair. Or is it Lust Affair?

How often does love find us? Honestly, if you disregard the flings. Love only happens a few times in a lifetime. Therefore, when love knocks at your door, brace up and let it in.

Love is a gift. Don't hold back the blessing you can give to the one you love. Give it all up... In the name of love.

I just wanna take this opportunity to tell the person whom i love alot dat i've no regret in loving him. And i promise to love him whole heartedly. He's the only one for me and the only one i'll ever want. (I LOVE YOU BABY!! I REALLY LOVE YOU TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY)

Yours Sincerely
Ryan

If I Had the Chance..

2010-12-22T15:48:00.005+08:00

There are days when we're going through tough times and many things around us seem to be going against us. Even when we get home after a long day, your family, Nephew, Niece, Cousins etc seems to be getting on your nerves.

But these are the times when we will unintentionally hurt the people who care about us genuinely. People who want to listen to your complaints and share your burden. People who are always there for you when you least expected. But very often, we like to push these people aside. And hurt them by doing so.

We just want to be left alone. And being alone is just what i really want at that time...

But these are the times we might regret. These are the times we might never get to choose again. There might be no tomorrow. You'll not be able to get the second chance to choose them over yourself. (We can never be sure if we'll be able to wake up tomorrow to seee the sunshine)

As I grow older, I start noticing how fragile life is. How tomorrow I might not get the chance to tell the people I care about how much I love them. These are the times when I will suddenly pick up my phone and call them and tell them I love them.

Most of the time, they think I'm in trouble or that something had happened to me. But it's just because for that moment in time, I remembered how much I love them. And I didn't want to waste the chance to tell them that.

Many times, we often learn to treasure things only when they are gone. Why wait till then when you can take the active stance and treasure them now. Life is defined by the many moments that we have to make a decision.

Don't use second chances as an excuse. Treasure the moment. Tell the people you love how much you love them...

To all the people who i've hurt in the past, present and even the future. I am terribly sorry. I just want to tell you how much i love you and i really care lot about you. Whatsoever dat i've done is all unintentional. I Love You From The Verry Bottom Of My Heart..

Yours Sincerely
Ryan'iel Bae

A Freaking FUck Type December

2010-12-22T00:23:00.001+08:00

A very good evening everyone.
I know it has been a while since i last update my blog (I mean really really update it). I am terribly sorry for it cos for past few weeks, It has been a terrible downturn for me. I was stressed, frustrated, angry and terribly sick. I guess i need not elaborate further on it cos it'll just add salt to the open wound.

(Ah Bee & Me @ Skape)

Well! As i've mentioned, i've been sick for the past 1 week. High fever, Flu, Cough, Body Ache etc etc. And i think it was a caused of a viral infections. (Dunno where the hell did i get that from.. SHIT!!) And i did not go to work for many days due to my conditions. (All thanks to the freaking FEVER) And i really feel very bad about it. I feel guilty towards my friend (Ah Tong) who is still opening up the job for me despite my frequent absence.. (FML!!) I am so afraid of losing my job again. (I still couldn't get over the N.O.V incident.. FUCK YOU "ISFENDI SALLEH" I curse you rot in hell!!)

(Nana & Me)

(Halim & Me)

(Me & Nana @ Skape)

No matter what, sick or not, i have to push myself to go to work. I couldn't afford to be jobless cos i'm sure everyone are aware that i am a very independent sort. And i never rely on my family for anything. Infact i've been living independantly eversince i was 15 years old. And i intend to maintain it dis way for as long as i live. (Never ever to rely on anyone. But MYSELF)

All the thing dat i ever owned in the past, the present and hopefully in the future is all from the fruits of my labour. My sheer hardwork. My sweat and blood. I dun like to rely on anyone cos i believe in attaining satisfactions of pampering myself after working damn hard.

(Addy & Me @ Ferrero Tree)

(Joel, Me & Addy Chua)

This month is a super freaking fucked type month for me. I hate it to the core and seriously, I super hate 2010. Alot of unpleasant things occurs dis year especially this month. I just hope dat as 2010 end, all the unpleasant things will vanish together with it.

(Me & My Bro in Law)

Today is 21 December 2010 and in 10 days time as the clock strike midnite, It marks the new year. (2011). I really really hope that 2011 will be a much better year for me and everyone around me. I'll just hope for the best and expect for the worst.

I VOWS TO
1) Work Damn Hard, Earn Much More & Save More (For my Future)
2) Be a better person then what i am now (Spiritually)
3) Quit smoking (Since Last Year I Tried Unsucessfully)
4) Cut down on my partying (Less Drinking + Less Partying = Less Spending)
5) Find time to go for a backpacking trip (All Around Asia)
6) Start saving up for my dream car & House
7) Be a better son towards my mother (I've been very bad this year)
9) Be a good Boyfriend towards the lucky ones.. (Whoever he is, he knows it)

May God Answer All My Prayers And Makes My Wish Come True... Amin

(Me & My Dearest Niece Qu'raisha Shalin)

And at the same time, i also hopes for world peace and harmony. May the hunger will have food to eat, The jobless have jobs to earn, The Poor to get out of poverty and live normally, The Rich become more generous towards the unfortunate, The heartbroken are mended, The tears become laughter and All sadness vanish and eventually become Happiness.. Amin..

Well peeps!! I also would like to add up that i've met someone who love me alot. I feel so lucky but at the same time i feel guilty too cos i've not been treating him right. I dunno what is wrong with me. I've always say that (It's better to be loved then to love someone) But in the end i just literally waste it. I dunno what should i do. I'll just leave it open as it is and hopes time will change everything. (God Please Guide Me On This Please.. Amin)

To that person, i love you alot. It's just dat i dunno how to show it to you. I dun expect you to change for me. But at the very least, change it for us please. Change for the sake of our future. (You know who you are) and i am pretty sure most of my friends and relative know who exactly who you are cos i've been mentioning ur name alot lately. I just wanna tell you dat i love you so much and hopes it'll get further then what it is now..

Well dats all i can say for now.. Till we meet again in my next posting ok. I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone a

(MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR)

Yours Sincerely

Ryan

Saigon Kick - Love Is On The Way [HD]

2010-12-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

Lonely sidewalks, silent night
Bring the evening, deep inside
Hold me darling, touch me now
Let the feelings free tonight
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight
Time of season, wipes your tears
No ryhme or reason, no more fears
And all the dreamin', is far behind
You are here now, and everythin's alright
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight
And in the morning I'll be gone away
All the things I left behind
If you need me I'll come night and day
Let's stop the hands of time
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight..

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

2010-12-20T18:54:00.000+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high...
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then
we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so, I
Love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Yours SincerelyRyan'iel Bae

Sucky December

2010-12-16T20:40:00.006+08:00

Hello Everyone! I'm back again.. This month has been a terrible month for me and a few others. I've had my fair share of freaking hard life and downturns dis month. Work wise, relationship wise, Party wise etc etc.

The only consolation i had dis month is dat i passed my RTT with flying colours.

(Thanks God)

All the rest is just bad news for me.

Today is Thursday 16th December 2010. And we are 2 weeks away before the start of a new year. I really hopes dat 2011 will be a superb year for me and for everyone.

I am looking foward to better quality of lives in the year 2011.

1) A Very Good Job With Good Salary & Benefit

2) Long awaited Love Based Relationship

3) Change All My Wardrobe
4) More Family Based Outing

5) To Start Savings For My Dream Car

6) New iPhone 4 / iPhone 5 / iPad

7) Travel around asia (Backpacking) in 2011

8) My own cosy Bachelor Pad (Apartment) -

Cos i badly need my own personal space without getting bossed around by those low life disrespectful Idiot. (I need not mention names here)

May all my wishes became reality.. Amen

Well, My mind is kinda blank now cos i'm down with a terrible fever, flu and cought. All thanks to the weather. (Holy Shit).. I can't complain can i?

A little update about my latest partying scene lately..

Dis year Zouk-Out celebrates it's 10 year anniversary at Sentosa Siloso Beach. This year is the biggest event so far organize by Zouk which cost 2.6 million dollars to staged.

It attract lots of party people from over the world.

Where 45% of the patron are foreigner.

I think dis year, it has the biggest turnout so far with about 30,000 people attend the events.. Inlike last few years where only the maximum of 20,000 people are allowed. Due to high demands of ticket, there's also alot of people who resort to cheating by selling Fake Ticket to unsuspecting partygoers. In the end, approx about 4000 people are denied entry on the event day. (I wonder how much the idiot who sell the ticket earns).

Luckily i did not fall into the scam and dis year,

From all the media coverage of the events, It states dat this year events is the best so far ever staged. All thanks to (Tiesto) & (David Guetta).. As for me and my cliques, we had our freaking bad day and downside at dis year Zouk Out.

(FYI, I did not even go into the event itself) I need not say whats wrong or who to blame on that day. But what i can say is dat i should't happen at all. It's quite dissapointing but at least it's a precious lesson learned for most of my cliques.

The Moral Of the Incident is to teach us to (Trust No One but ourself) The only word to describe our feeling dat day is, (Dispensable).. We were taken in for a ride and was taken for granted bt the people we claimed to be our bestie.. Well we've already moved on. So no use ponder over useless people. My advise to those people (Whoever you are) - Get a fucking life and grow up. It does not hurt us even an inch. Instead it makes us stronger and wiser in judging human characteristic. I dun wanna say anything anymore. Dats all i can say for now.

(Kak Lin Teasing Me!!)

(Drinking Sessions In Hotel Room)

(Me & Fasha "Kak Lin GF")

(Me & My Cousin)

(New Friend "Zee Huang" & Lizza)

(Emo'ing Meeeee!!)

(Me Kena Sabo @ Carpark Pre Party Celebrations)

(My Sister Ann "Super Huge Wig" & Lizza)

(Me)

(Me & Liz)

(Halim Hashim & Waty)

(Friends No More)

(Azree & Brad)

(Kiss me thru the Fone)

(Jana JT & Me)

(Fake Smile)

(Cheers)

(Me & My Dearest Cousin Jana)

(Me & Lizza )

(Me Lying Down)

(Me With One Of Random Girls There)

(Me & Zee Cutie)

(Random)

(Me surrounded by my admirers)

(I'm in Miami Bitch)

(Sweet)

(Cousins Reunion)

(Macy's Watie & Lizza)

(In the Car On the Way To Zouk Out)

(At Pandan Reservoir)

(Random)

(Me, Jana & Lizza)

(Emoing)

(Me & Kak Lin)

(Me & Normes)

(Sweetest Side Of Me)

(Caught in the Act)

(How i wish i can be a child again)

(Act Cute)

(Reminising)

(Sabotage)

(Happy Hour)

(Cute ah Zee)

(Cleaning Up after Wine, Whisky, Vodka and Coke Shower)

(Grumbling)

(The End of The Day)

(Looking foward to great time ahead.)

Well everyone! 2010 is a freaking terrible year for me. Lots and lots of hardship and struggles. Yeah even though it seems like tons and tons of partying too, it also mean lots of spending and wasting of money on unecessary spendings. But i am really looking foward to a wonderful 2011. I really hope 2011 will be whole lot better. I'ts time for a change. A change for a better future.. Amin..

November General Updates

2010-12-05T02:00:00.003+08:00

Hello Everyone.. I know it has been a while since i actually update anything cos, i've been terribly busy with my work commitments all along. Well! There has been alot of things dat has been happening to me.. Pleasant and Unpleasant.. So here it goes...

I just dyed and restyled my hair.. Awesome all thanks to my personal hairstylist (Leonard).. It's kinda look like a Mohawk and white in colour.. Well, the process was so damn painful as i bleached it 2 times.. I nearly Collapse and faint... Luckily i didn't as i try to endure the pain for the sake of fashion extremism..

Then November is a month where i got alot of b'day celebration to attend.. Fiqah, Halim, Hakim, Sera, Lizza and Liz. OMFG! I just cant affford to buy gift for all of them. So i just bring them out to party 2 days straight.. First to a Gay Club called CLUB PLAY then the following day we party hard at Azzura Sentosa.. Drank alot and sadly to say that i spend alot too.. Infact I overspent.. Well there's no point regretting as what is done cannot be undone rite.. Hehehe

Next, i met someone, had a crush on him and i realised that i start to fall in love with him... Who? It's for me to know and for you to find out.. (But i'm preety sure dat lot's of you guys out there might know who am i falling in love with.. Hahaha) You know, i know, public dunno.. Hahaha Crap... But seriously, i really love him alot cos he is such a caring guy and i felt comfortable communicating with him. He makes me felt wanted and always there for me whenever i need him.. To dat guy, I LOVE YOU TO THE FUCKING MAX...

Recently, Something bad happeneed. I lost my job. (A Job that pays me quite well with lots of benefit) I know i am partly to be blamed for this loss. But on the other hand, honestly, i dun feel good working for N.O.V (National Oilwell Varco) anymore..

I super hate most of the people there especially my Boss, the MOTHER FUCKING DOG (ISFENDI SALLEH).. He's such an hypocrite bastard.. I know he felt insecure of my presence as i am much more intelligent and smarter then him. Seriously, he's the reason why i hate to go to work..

As sad as i am, i have a mixed feeling now. One is i am sad cos N.O.V is a big and good company and i know chance like this will never come again.. But i'm also happy that i felt free at last.. Maybe i am not destined to be in this line.. I think i deserve to be elsewhere where the opportunity might get better and greater for me. So who knows one fine day i might land into my dream job which really interest me and can give me the opportunity to rise up thru the rank.. And i thank god that i have lots of wonderful people who are supportive of me.. Almost all of them says dat "I am a good worker. It'll be easy for someone as hardworking and experience as me to land into a job very soon"..

Well i guess i'll just treat it as a blessing in disguise.. Who knows, something bigger and greater awaits me... Insyallah.. But i really hope to find a job which really suits me.. (ALLAH please help me please.. Amin..)

And finally, yesterday (Friday 3rd December 2010) i had a blast of anouting again.. It's Nana's 22nd birthday and i decided to celebrate for her. First Myself, Nana & Lizza meet at the MRT and we go to meet Addy Chua @ Somerset Mrt station as he wanted to eat supper with me.. So off we go and meet Addy. Upon arrrival, Addy fetch us and we go and search for a TCC outlet. But sadly everywhere is full so the four of us (Myself, Addy, Nana & Lizza) slowly walked towards Paragon and we saw a place for us @ The Coffee Bean there. I and Addy Drank Tea (Earl Grey) While Nana & Lizza drink Iced Blended Mocha.. We ordered some cakes and Ceasar Salads. We took some pics there..

Me & Mardiana Musa (The Bday Girl)

Feeding Nana Bday Cake

We're Not A Couple.. Just Friends

Then after dat, the four of us hail a cab and head down to Tanjong pagar where Club Play (A Gay Club) is located. There i opened 1 bottle of Chivas Regal 12 years, 6 tequila SHots and 2 Flaming Lamboghinis (for the 2 girls).. We party and danced all night long. Even though my heart seems abit sad over things, but i managed to overcome it.

How can i not be happy when Addy's (My Dear Buddy) keep disturbing and teasing me all night long and he keep introducing me to his friends.. He hold my hand and dragged me around play, up the stage, to the bar etc etc.. Dunno why but he just kept introducing me to others.. (Like seling me off liddat) Hahaha.. But it's ok.. I like it and i certainly enjoyed his company.

The four of us was freaking awesome dat nite. Alot of eyes was on our group. I dunno why the crazy Addy suddenly hug me tight and carry me like a rag doll and turn around jokingly.. OMFG i was so damn paisey cos everyone was looking at me.. But nevermind cos i know Addy was happy and he's just joking..

We took lots and lots of photos.. (More Pics to come from Nana's Camera). Then at around 3am, the four of us took a cab home where Nana & Lizza dropped me & Addy at jurong West. I then had supper with Addy near our home and chit chat at the play ground nearby.. By the time we bid each other good bye, it's almost 5 am. Ok lah Everyone.. Dats all for today. I'll update more once Nana's camera Pics are up. So keep a look out yeah of my latest updates..

Me & Addy @ Play (Addy Cheeky huh!!)

Lizza, Me & Nana

Nana, Me & Addy

Me & Forgot His Name LoLx

One of my Fav Brand of Whisky

Cuddle!!

Me & Dunno Who Lolx

Addy & Lizza.. So sweet..

Me & My Sister Lizza

Franco, Me & 18yo Chinese Boy GAY.. Hahahak

Woah! Playboy huh Addy!!

Sweet Memories of Me & Addy (My Bestie)

Peace no WAR

Not Real okay..

Buddy Forever

I Love You All TTFM

XoXo
Ryan'iel (Tatsuya Hiroshi)

I Love you..

2010-11-28T14:45:00.001+08:00

내 마음과 내 마음에있는 유일한 사람은 당신입니다. 매일 매일 매일 하루도 순간 당신에 대해 생각 해. 하지만 너무 나빠요. 난 당신을 잃고 무서워 때문에 당신에 대한 내 감정을 표현을 대담하게하지 마십시오. 난 그냥 내 자신에게 계속 줄 필요가 나는 것 같다. (난 정말 당신이 언젠가 내 셨으면 좋겠 그리고 내가 내 마음의 모든 비트와 함께 당신을 사랑합니다 맹세)

Yours Sincerely
Ryan'iel Bae

A Love to Live For..

2010-11-28T14:32:00.000+08:00

Destiny brought us together

But played a trick on us.
It threw us in the middle of a maze,
To figure our way out.
We passed through this maze together,
Making all the wrong turns,
Coming up against dead ends,
Feeling like there is no way out.
It posed a challenge for us,
And we worked through each one of them,
Determined to come out alive,
To tell our story, To go on and on for generations to come,
To be immortal through the people that would carry our story.
Like Shakespeare who carried Romeo and Juliet’s story.
But our story will be special and unique
We would not die for love,
But instead one of the greatest things that anyone can possibly have,
A love to live for.....

XoXo
Ryan'iel Bae

Party like a pornstar... Ooops!! Like a Rockstar.. LoLx

2010-11-22T21:15:00.001+08:00

Me & Awie @ Club Play (Nov Babies Bdae bash)

Party Like A Rock Starrrr!!!

Lizza, Myself & Brad @ Azzura Sentosa (Brad's Bday Bash)

Serafina & Me @ Azzura Sentosa

Me (Ryan) The Ultimate FASHIONISTA

Brad (The Bdae Boy) & Me by the pool side @ Azzura

Headache!!

All of us the PARTY PEOPLE...

Azri, Fai, Bob & Me *Peace*

Candid Shots!!

Me dancing like crazzzyyyyy sia..

Well!! I am sorry dat i couldn't post the entire album as it'll take like forever to be uploaded.. Just a few to show a lil glance on whats been happening lately.. Party and more party.. LoLx... Well if u guys noticed, i am sporting a new hairdo and colour.. Cool Huh!! Hehehe!! I like it so much... All thanks to myy personal hairstylist (Leonard).. Dats all for now.. Til we meet again in my next post.. More updated to come.. So dun stop visiting yeah.. (Comments Pleaseeeee)

Yours Sincerely.. XoXo <3
Ryan'iel Bae

the pretenders - I'll stand by you ( video )

2010-11-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

Yours SincerelyRyan'iel Bae

2010-11-15T22:40:00.001+08:00

I strongly respect this 14 yr old boy for being so open abt his sexual orientation on being gay. ANd he defended his teacher who got punished by the school administrativve board while standing up for the 14 yr old boy.. Oh boy! you got my respect man.. I Salute You..

In a speech hailed as "amazing" and "inspiring", a 14-year-old gay student told his school board that he was bullied by classmates and had considered suicide when he was 9, and defended his teacher who was temporarily suspended for taking two students to task for their racist and anti-gay remarks.

Graeme Taylor, an openly gay 14-year-old student in Howell, Michigan, made a short plea in support of his teacher Jay McDowell who was temporarily suspended without pay earlier this month after telling a student wearing a Confederate flag (which is considered by many to be an overt symbol of racism) and a student making anti-gay remarks to leave his class.

At a school-board meeting last Friday, Taylor told a roomful of about 100 people about how he wished he had someone to stick up for him the way he believed McDowell did for gay students in the school. He urged the school board to give McDowell his pay and reverse the disciplinary actions.

"This teacher, whom I fully support, finally stood up and said something. I’ve been in rooms, in classrooms where children have said the worst kind of things: the kinds of things that helped drive me to a suicide attempt when I was only nine years old.

"The best thing you can do right now is just give him his pay for that day and just reverse the disciplinary actions. He did an amazing thing. He did something that’s inspired a lot of people. And whenever, ever, I have a teacher stand up for me like that, they change in my eyes. I support Jay McDowell and I hope you do too."

According to The Detroit News, the Howell High School teacher was suspended for two days – one with pay, one without – for an Oct. 20 incident in which he disciplined two students who made comments in class that they didn't accept homosexuals.

The Detroit News reported: "The incident began after a student asked McDowell, who was wearing a purple T-shirt to raise awareness of anti-gay harassment for national Anti-Bullying Day, why he had asked a student to remove her Confederate flag belt buckle. A discussion followed, ending with McDowell suspending two students from his class for the rest of the period."

Yours Sincerely Ryan'iel Bae

Forgive or Not!!

2010-11-10T20:46:00.004+08:00

Me a happier and better man now!!

I'll confess dat on a few occasions i would slipped into 'Revenge Fantasies', wishing with more than a lil shame that i could be one of the Angry Bitches who would use Anything/Anyone to get at someone whom has hurt me Deeply. Holding down an ugly knot of hurt and anger that waits to erupt from.. (for me) a soured stomach.. hehe.

After a while, well not really a while but after a deep2 sane thoughts wrapped with damn hot tears flowing from my eyes, i realize that, i'm just as capable of causing hurt, speaking out in anger, making mistakes as the next person or anyone. then i can Begin to become more forgiving of myself & others.

:: The thing is You, Me, We have been angry with our parents, siblings, spouse, friends etc. But let's face it, we're not gonna make them Redo the past right? We have a choice and that is, personally....
- either hold on to the anger & allow it to poison our life (aged ourselves)
- or find a way to let go of our old grudges (sweet wrinklefree)

:: Yeah i agree its no small feat nor chicken feet to forgive those who have hurt us (Deeply) Just try, yes TRY putting ourselves in their shoes & Understand the Desperation, Fear or even Ignorance that may be the origin of their actions. When Truthfully consider whether..we could have done OR have done something similar, it becomes easier to forgive.

I don't know why i have this feeling that we're pretending that we aren't as flawed as the rest of humanity when we Refuse to Forgive. I think Forgiveness insists that we admit we're just like every other human being doing the best we can with what we know & experience.. (Self-Acceptance)

Let Forgiveness creep into our heart, softening that hard knot of Anger & Hurt. You guys Ever Heard of this...?

::Forgiving may help the Forgiver more than the Forgiven::

XoXO =)

Lots Of Love, Hugs and Kisses

RYAN

A SHoulder to CRY on...!!

2010-11-03T21:15:00.001+08:00

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you
by your side,

And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.

All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on
Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there!

And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....

Tommy Page "A Shoulder To Cry On" (Offical Music Video) HQ

2010-11-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

Shania Twain-Ka-ching

2010-11-03T21:07:00.000+08:00

Money!! is honey and it can be poison too.. But this songs just describe it well.. Listen and enjoy it peeps!!

Lots Of <3

Ryan

What a touching Story by (Jamiyah Children Home)

2010-10-25T20:05:00.002+08:00

A woman came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find her 5-year old son waiting for her at the door.SON: 'Mummy, may I ask you a question?'MUM: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the woman.

SON: 'Mummy, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the woman said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'If you must know, I make $20 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: "Mummy, may I please borrow $5?"

The mother was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.. The woman sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money? After about an hour or so, the woman had calmed down, and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $5 and he really didn't ask for money very often.

The woman went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door. 'Are you asleep, son?' She asked. 'No Mummy, I'm awake,' replied the boy. 'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the woman. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $5 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you Mummy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The woman saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his mother.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the mother grumbled. 'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied. 'Mummy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The mother was crushed. She put her arms around her little son, and she begged for his forgiveness. It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.

For the kids at Jamiyah Children's Home .. they have never gOnna be a chaNce like this .....

But they surely have you ... it's the time and attentiOn - thAnkQ fOr GIVING the GIFT of LOVE ......

I've Learned...

2010-10-17T14:47:00.003+08:00

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your live, but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes, after that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I've learned that it's not what happens to people, it's what they do about it. I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you'll see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance same goes for true love.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgive by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other and just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life. I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, As well as talking, Can ease emotional pains. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe. I've learned to love and be loved. I've learned.

Trust... Not as easy as it sounds... But you can work on it...

2010-10-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

If you’ve ever been betrayed or severely disappointed by someone you love, you know how difficult it can be to trust again. Whether you were let down by a friend, spouse, lover, or even a parent, this can negatively impact future relationships.

Living with suspicion of people’s motives or refusing to trust anyone is nothing more than a defense mechanism. And why do we use defense mechanisms? To protect ourselves from that which we fear. That’s right; fear is the ruling factor beneath the unwillingness or inability to trust others.

These 7 tips are for anyone with a desire to trust again.

1) Give yourself time to heal
It’s nearly impossible to heal without becoming consciously aware of exactly what you are feeling. Is it sadness, guilt, anger, disappointment, depression, loneliness or fear? Chances are it is an ugly combination of these emotions. Allow yourself to fully acknowledge each feeling.

2) Link actions and emotions
After acknowledging what you feel, consider the actions that “made” you feel that way. Write down the actions taken by your beloved that are (seemingly) making it hard for you to trust again. Did your mate have an affair? Did a family member steal from you? Did a friend tell your darkest secret to others? Did a loved one call you ugly names, deny you to their friends, or physically harm you? Did a parent let you down? Writing these specific actions won’t feel good, but it is necessary in order to face and move past the pain.

For each action that you write, notice the emotions that you feel. In most cases, thoughts about one action trigger several emotions. Write each feeling next to the action. If you feel powerless, frustrated, and ashamed when thinking of your mate’s affair, write it down.

If you feel enraged, disappointed, and hurt by your best friend’s lies, write it down.

Note: It is important NOT to take a break from this process during this step.

3) Discover the thought triggers
After acknowledging your feelings in regards to the actions taken by someone you trusted, the next step is to discover the underlying thoughts. Every single emotion is triggered by thought. And our thoughts are the one thing that we can always control.
Using the information from step 2, write what you thought about each action. If your parent was not there for you when you needed him/her, what do you think about that?

Some thoughts may be:
My father never really loved me, what kind of parent does this anyway, so many people had great childhoods but look what I got, why me, my mother should have stood up for me, I was never the favorite, If only I was smart like my brother, she would (or would not) have done this if she really cared.

In the case of betrayal by a lover, you may think:
She lied and I was stupid enough to believe her, he must have never really loved me, why do I always get treated this way, I wonder if it’s because I’m not as pretty as she is, her new guy is much more successful than I am, I wasted __ years of my life for nothing, I bet she even slept with him in our home, he is a heartless scumbag, I should have listened to my friends

It is important to fully process the thoughts that have left you filled with negative feelings about a situation. You can use the form, when did I thought and I felt .

When the list is done, realize that it is your thoughts about the actions that trigger your feelings. It is not the actions themselves. This will help you to realize that you are 100% empowered to change how you feel. No, it doesn’t mean that what the other person did was okay. No, total recovery from the hurt won’t be immediate. But doesn’t it feel better to know that you, and only you, are in control of your happiness?

4. Replace blame with understanding
With the first 3 steps, you’ve had more than enough time to own your feelings. You’ve tied each action to a feeling, and each feeling to trigger thoughts. Now, it’s time to move on.

Instead of blaming the other person for your feelings, do the only responsible and healing thing that you can do. Accept full responsibility for your actions and feelings. This doesn’t mean that anything is your fault, but there is also no benefit for you in laying fault on the other person. They have complete responsibility for their actions and feelings, just as you do.

Remember this: Whatever action a person takes has everything to do with them and nothing to do with you. If the person called you horrible names, they obviously have a lot of negative thoughts. Maybe they are so insecure that they need to belittle others—and you just happened to get caught in the crossfire. If they had secret affairs, it could be because validation from others calmed their feelings of inadequacy.

You don’t need to completely understand why others say or do things that you dislike, just make sure you understand that it is not really about you.

5. The art of forgiveness
Once you have achieved some degree of understanding, forgive the person who betrayed your trust. This does not mean taking the betrayer back into your life; it just means not holding a grudge in your heart.

Like you and I, she or he is a work in progress. We all make mistakes and we can move on without being forgiven. However, we can’t move on without forgiving. In other words, your refusal to forgive does not hinder the other person, but it does thwart your healing.

6. Embracing the life lessons
Every trial or difficulty has a lesson within it that can enhance your life. Some lessons are clearer than others, but they are always there. Figure out how the relationship (and its ending) contributed to your personal development. Did you become a much stronger person? Did you learn a lesson about listening to your gut instincts when meeting someone?

Nothing changes the fact that we ALL experience undesirable circumstances in our lives. However, your success depends upon what you take from each challenge. Remember to pause and listen in the stillness of the aftermath so that you never miss the lesson being taught.

7. Moving on
Life goes on, right? But how will you think or feel differently moving forward? You have choices.
You can concentrate on the betrayal that may have ended, or drastically changed, a relationship. You can walk around with a chip on your shoulder, unwilling to accept that your thoughts are the cause of your prolonged misery. You can hold grudges against others for their mistakes and even repress feelings about your own mistakes.

Alternatively, you can appreciate yourself for having the courage to forgive. You can be thankful for the strength of character that you’ve built as a result of hardship. You can replace your negative thoughts with thoughts of understanding. You can appreciate the past for the contribution to your growth. You can love the good and the bad for the good in it all. You can let go, love fearlessly, and trust in the perfection of this great Universe.

All of these are choices that determine how you will experience life. And the person doing the choosing is none other than you.

Will you stunt your own growth or reopen your heart?

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

2010-10-17T14:22:00.000+08:00

I LOve The Way You Lie

All about Me

2010-09-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

Everything About me.. Read it with own risk..

1. I am a very sturbborn person. So don't try to challenge what I think is right. You will just make me very annoyed.

2. I hate people who are late coz I am usually early. Punctuality is very important for me.

3. I tend to have a very unapproachable face if I don't smile... Well, god constructed my face that way. My alternate soloution is to keep smiling like silli or go for plastic surgery... Hmmm... I choose to just look unapproachable. Heehee...

4. I don't really have a standard preferance to what type of guys I like... So don't ask.
A man is attractive for who he is... Don't change yourself to suit other people.

5. I like happy things. Rabbits or comedy or Animation or nice windy weather or the smile on a kid when he is eating a chocolate. But that doesn't mean I am a cheerful fella. These are the things that perk me up. =D

6. Lastly... I like people who take the initiative. It really shows how enthusiastic you are.

Guess by now you should know I like to observe...
Congrats on reading this long description...
Maybe you will find me arrogant or very opinionated...
Well... That is up to you to decide... I cannot do much...
Bless ya...
Heehee...

What I find important in a relationship

Committing to each other.
No matter monogamous or open, both must know that who is the person that he/she truly loves.

Relationship must be spice up. Being homosexual... We don't go through the phase of having baby or watching our kids grow up and they getting married. Hence we need to look for alternative sense of fulfilment. Doing something interesting for your love ones can make him/her appreciate you more. But this must be 2 ways... Don't only expect your partner to do it...

What turns me on

Physically: Someone who is healthy and take cares of himself.
Mentally: Someone who is simple and has a good command of language.
Spiritually: Someone who knows what he wants and don't beat about the bush.
Reality: Someone who can make me think of him day and night...

Me and My Buddy

2010-08-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since i last update my blog as i've been very busy with my daily life commitments.. However i have lots of thing to share with all the faithful followers out there. So keep following everyone cos i have lots of thing to share.. Sad, Unhappiness, Laughter, Party etc etc.. You named it.. The above is the latest pics of Myself with My Buddy (BFF's) "Chris Tan Kin Onn". It was taken On My Birthday Party @ Club Bubberry Thai DIsco... (There's More Pics to be uploaded soon.. So keep checking out my blog aite..)

XoXo Hugx

Delta Goodrem and Brian McFadden (live)

2010-08-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

Oh My God.. I Love This Song Man!!! Very Meaningful...

We Are The World 25 For Haiti - Official Video

2010-07-07T18:48:00.000+08:00

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[HD] MV - Cabi song (Caribbean Bay) 2PM & SNSD

2010-07-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

The guys and girls in here is so damn hot.. Especially the boys.. I Love it...

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Avenged Sevenfold - I Won't See You Tonight (Part 1)

2010-07-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

AWESOME.. LOVE THIS SO MUCH... THE LYRIC IS SO MEANINGFUL.. I CRIED AT TIMES LISTENING TO THIS.. (Rest In Peace JIMMY)

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Resistance (Official Video)

2010-07-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

This song by muse is so damn awesome.. I love it man!! Nice songs and meaningful Lyrics.. ANd love his voice too.. Very original...
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Goodbye - Air Supply

2010-06-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

The Cranberries - Dreams

2010-06-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

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2010-06-21T04:33:00.000+08:00

Ok Ok! I Know im getting all mushy mushy.. And it might get others disgusted.. But could you blame me? For having this type of feeling? For those people that know me well enough, i am very sure that they will be very happy for me and give me their ultimate blessing. For those who don't, i am very sorry cos you don't know me well enough.

For many years i've been living in total denial of my true self (Who i am?). I've been depriving myself of being loved cos i refused to believe in love or trust anyone. Despite my extroversion, funny personality, wide smile and grin, lively and humourous character and the strong desire of helping and pleasing others (Even to the expense of my own future and happiness) i am actually a loner..

Has anyone ever noticed that as a matter of fact, I've been living in my own world. A world of loneliness full of sorrow, sadness and pain. I kept all my troubles and sorrow within me just for the sake of pleasing others. I felt pain. I felt alone. I felt hopeless and yet no one notice. No One

And now, out of sudden, someone came by and talk to me. Befriending me, Show me concern. Love me for who i am despite of who i used to be, believe in me, expect nothing out of me except my pure love, Makes me blushed with all the praises, give me all the hopes dat i could ever wished for and most importantly for once to actually Trust me.

Oh God! It has been such a long long time since i felt so awake. Fully awake from my hidden sorrows and unhappiness. It has been such a long time since i had this feeling. A feeling i can never describe in words. A feeling that makes my heart beats fast. It is a feeling i called "LOVE"

For years i've been alone, leading this lonely life on a lonely world. And now, a special someone came into my life out of nowhere and give me a sudden surge of happiness that i've long given up upon. Give me the love i've been dying for. Can i refuse it???

Hell No!! I will never deny it or refuse it cos it is a matter of my happiness and my future. Can anyone blame me for taking this risk? Even if this is a risk that i am taking, i could even put my life on it. Because even if it's not for real and it will be gone as fast as it came, at the very least i got to feel a little bit of love and happiness. At least i wont die in vain. Die a loner..

For all these, i got one particular person to thanks. And by now, most of you guys might have an idea of who 'HE' was... Yes.. Its not a typo error. And i really mean it when i say it's a "HE". For those who know who he was, please give me your blessing and please thanks him (The special Someone) for making me your (Friend, Brother, Cousin, Enemy, Ex Lover etc etc) A happier man. He deserve every credit for putting this sincere smile on my face. This real laughter on me and this Happiness on me again.. Thank you (Thang).. Thank you for all you've done for me..

I thank you for the love which you showered upon me and i have no regrets. I will never regret knowing you, befriending you and now loving you. And i am proud to say that I LOVE YOU my darling.. And i will love you for as long as i could.. And i hope you too got this same feeling towards me.. There's nothing that i wished for but to spend the rest of my life with you and loving you.. I will have no regrets.

Best of Love

Ryan (Full of Love)

HOPE!! It's the reason why i'am still Living.

2010-02-06T10:17:00.000+08:00

Sigh!! Sigh!! Why must it be me who always gets hurt? Why must it be me who have to go through the pain of dissapointment again and again and again. What have i done wrong till i deserve to be treated this way? Where exactly does the mistake lies? Is it due to me being too possessive towards my friends? Or is it because of my sheer stupidity of believing and trusting others easily? The reason i'm being posessive towards my friends is because i want to protect them from any harm that is coming their way. Is it wrong of me being protective towards my friends? As for believing and trusting others, i guess there's nothing wrong in doing that. Isn't friendship is all about trust?.. Oh Gosh! Whatever it is, no one deserve to be treated this way.. "NO ONE"...

I know that i've been reminded time and again on not to believe and trust others easily. And i knew dat i've been constantly reminded on not to commit myself whole heartedly into anything that got to do with feelings. But i'm a human too. I have feelings, I have heart and i have all the right to befriend or love anyone that i like. I am also like everyone else who needs companionship in life. No one really knows how lonely i am and how much this loneliness is killing me. People can only judge my outer personality which are full of laughter.. But deep inside, no one can ever imagine how i felt. How my heart cry, how sad and lonely i am... Sigh!

Is it wrong of me to find someone who can share my sorrow and happiness together with me? I've never asked for anything in return, nor did i ever asked to be rewarded for my kindness. The only thing that i was hoping for is to share everything that i have with others. To see the "Friendship" grow and flourish into something meaningful. A pure and sincere friendship, someone whom can lend me a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and who will always be there for me during my up's and down's.. Thats all that i ever ask for..

At times i don't know how to express my heartfelt. But at the same time, i also couldn't ignore this terrible feelings inside me. It is so painful that it makes my heart breaks whenever i see other people being happy with their companion.. It is painful to be me. A loner who is god damn lonely...

Well! Whatever it is, the only reason that keeps me going and moving on in life despite being lonely is a thing called "HOPE".. May one day, i can lead a normal life like everyone else, and hopefully one day, a perfect person with a perfect soul will come by into my life and guide me out of this darkness.. God.. Please answer my prayers and please bless me god....

Signing Off
Ryan'iel Bae

I'm a Fashionista

2010-01-09T21:30:00.001+08:00

Even places that have been shrouded in darkness for billions of years can be illuminated.

Even a stone from the bottom of a river can be used to produce fire.

Our present sufferings,

no matter how dark,

have certainly not continued for billions of years, nor will they linger forever.

The sun will definitely rise. In fact, its ascent has already begun.

A New Year... Marks New Beginning

2010-01-06T16:39:00.003+08:00

2009 has been a tough year for many. With the falling of Lehman Brothers which triggered the worst economic downturn throughout the world, many went bankrupt and more lose their jobs and source of income and not forgetting the H1N1 swine flu pandemic which kills tens of thousands of people worldwide. It has been one of the most unforgettable years for most of us

I also was not spared by the worldwide crisis. I too have had my share of downturn. 2009 has been a year full of trials & tribulations, lots of unhappiness & sorrows and loads of up’s & down’s for me. From the drop of my income which eventually led to my retrenchment from the Oil & Petrochemical industries, to failed relationship which caused my broken engagement which last barely 1 week. However i never gave up caused i believe in learning through lessons and experience. Whatever sorrows or unhappiness that I’ve been through actually makes me a wiser person in life. It is a lesson learnt for me, a valuable lesson in life.

Well as the saying goes, “ Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery while today is a gift, that’s why it’s called the present” it makes me just want to live the day to the fullest. Because we never know if we are still alive tomorrow to smell the morning breeze and feel the warm of the sun. We can never be sure of what life has in store for us.

However many yesterday has passed and eventually it led to the end of year 2009. And guess what? I survived. I am still breathing now and it is already a new year. Welcome year 2010. I got this feeling that this New Year is going to be a good year for me as well as many others. I don’t know why but my instinct told me so.

I even celebrate the New Year countdown at Sentosa Beach Party with my family members and friends. I danced through the night like no one business and enjoyed myself to the core. I’ve never been like this before.

Well, hopefully my instinct won’t fail me. I was really looking forward to a better life in 2010. A new year, a new beginning, a new chapter or maybe a new story line. May god bless me yeah.

Dear readers. I hope it’s not too late for me to wish all of you a prosperous new year. May 2010 brings happiness, health and wealth to all of you. God bless all of you yeah.. Hugs and Kisses from me.

XoXo

Stomp : http://club.stomp.com.sg/stomp/clubstomp/lust/photo/299664/nye_siloso_beach_party.html#

Ryaniel

NYE Celebrations @ Siloso Beach Party

2010-01-03T23:44:00.001+08:00

Happy happy happy new year

Cam Whore... (Me, Me and Me)

2009-12-13T18:17:00.003+08:00

Hey there.. The Following are some of the random pics that i took of myself while being away from blogging. I hope all of you like my new looks aite. Do send me comments through my C-Box ok.. Hope to hear from all of you soon... Cheers

Life iz too short 2 wake up in e morning wit regrets ..
Love e ppL whu treat u right, 4get e 1 whu don't ..
Live life to the fullest cos life is short.
Cherish every moment of it cos time is precious..

XoXoXoXo

Outing With My Cousin Riza on 08/12/09

2009-12-13T17:55:00.004+08:00

I've been feeling damn bored lately. So i decide to meet my beautiful cousin Riza for a meet up. After meeting her at Tiong Bahru Plaza, Both of us head to Great World City where we do some shopping. There i bought a nice Tee'shirt that came with a hood. It was damn nice and cheap too. The staff was so nice and friendly to us till he gave us a 30% discount. Wow... So nice of him. Thank you yeah. After shopping, both of us head to One Fullerton Coffee Bean for some Light Supper.. The following are some of the Pics that we took while at Coffee Bean.. Enjoy yeah...

Dis is me...

My Beautiful Cousin Riza

Me Posing for the Camera

Delicious pasta fm Coffee bean.. It's so creamy and cheesy

My Favourite Chinese Chicken Salad fm Coffee Bean

Me looking tired after Shopping

Riza Enjoying her Pasta

Drinking My Favourite Drink (Mocha Iced Blended)

She really likes the Pasta Huh.. Cant blame her.. It's damn Nice

The Girl dat i Respect most for her Strength and Patience

Acting Cute Huh... Gross

Dats all for now... Do send me some comments yeah. Love ya all

XoXoXoXo

Dinner @ Makan Shiok on 07/12/09

2009-12-13T13:45:00.005+08:00

Supper at Makan Shiok Jurong West With My Cousins..

My Cousin Mizi Marasalvatrucha

My Cousin Awie Tong Sampah....hahaha

More Pics to be uploaded soon.. Keep a look out yeah...

XoXo

Ryan'iel Bae

Haicut

2009-12-13T12:47:00.001+08:00

Hey there.. Here i am back to full time blogging again.. Hahaha... Well got some spare time away from the hassle and bustle of work commitments. Now i am at my new apartment. Me very own bachelor pad at Tiong Bahru with my 2 cousin.. Been here since yesterday cos we rented some DVD's and have a movie marathon. But it turns out to be a sleeping marathon instead...hahaha.. The three of us sleep like a pig... Well readers.. as promised, the following are some pictures of me waiting to get a haircut... Do send me some comments at my (C-Box) yeah... I love all of you... Muacksss...

Me waiting for my turn... Cos "Rain" my personal hairstylist was attending to another customer..

Me posing for the camera... Well wat a bad hair day huh..LoL

My New Haircut as recommended by "Rain"

Nice Rite? Hahaha..

Thats all for now.. I will upload more pics soon yeah.. so do keep a look out yeah... I love all of you... Muacksss

Sorry for being away for too long...

2009-12-13T00:49:00.001+08:00

Hey there.. First and foremost i would like to apologize for being away from blogging for too long... It's not intentional.. I've been very busy with meetings, course and work commitments till i hardly have time to blog.. I've compile lots of pics to be uploaded here... But the net was damn lag till i gave up.. Well don't worry cos i promise will update and upload all the pics that i've compiled soon yeah...

And just for info, i've cut my hair again.. This time its a bit extreme cos it's like half of my head have different styles..(Thanks to my personal Hairstylist "Rain" for the wonderful haircut..Hugx)

I will update the pics of my latest hairstyle soon..

Please visit my blog often yeah for new updates of my daily life... As for now.. Just wanna wish all of you a wonderful advance Merry Christmas... Jingle Bell.. Jingle Bell... Jingle all the way...hahaha

Love all of you so much...

xoxo

Ryan'iel Bae

Wisdom Quotes

2009-12-13T00:40:00.001+08:00

Dear readers.. the following are some wisdom quotes that I've come across.. So enjoy yeah...

A man begins cutting his wisdom teeth the first time he bites off more than he can chew.
Herb Caen

A prudent question is one-half of wisdom.
Francis Bacon

All this worldly wisdom was once the unamiable heresy of some wise man.
Henry David Thoreau

By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.
Confucius

Cleverness is not wisdom.
Euripides

Common sense in an uncommon degree is what the world calls wisdom.
Samuel Taylor Coleridge

Does wisdom perhaps appear on the earth as a raven which is inspired by the smell of carrion?
Friedrich Nietzsche

Every man is a damn fool for at least five minutes every day; wisdom consists in not exceeding the limit.
Elbert Hubbard

He dares to be a fool, and that is the first step in the direction of wisdom.
James Huneker

He who devotes sixteen hours a day to hard study may become at sixty as wise as he thought himself at twenty.
Mary Wilson Little

Honesty is the first chapter in the book of wisdom.
Thomas Jefferson

In seeking wisdom thou art wise; in imagining that thou hast attained it - thou art a fool.
Lord Chesterfield

It is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things.
Henry David Thoreau

It is astonishing with how little wisdom mankind can be governed, when that little wisdom is its own.
William Ralph Inge

It requires wisdom to understand wisdom: the music is nothing if the audience is deaf.
Walter Lippmann

Knowledge comes, but wisdom lingers.
Alfred Lord Tennyson

Learning sleeps and snores in libraries, but wisdom is everywhere, wide awake, on tiptoe.
Josh Billings

Memory is the mother of all wisdom.
Aeschylus

Never does nature say one thing and wisdom another.
Juvenal

Nine-tenths of wisdom is being wise in time.
Theodore Roosevelt

Orchid Series Singapore Currency Collections

2009-11-29T02:59:00.003+08:00

Dear readers!
As promised, The following are "Orchid" Singapore currency collections that I've promised to upload. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as i do yeah... Enjoy..

Singapore $1.00 (We seldom see this around anymore rite?)

Singapore $5.00 (This is Rare Collections)

Singapore $10.00 (Front)

Singapore $10.00 (Back)

Singapore $25.00 (Limited Edition)

Singapore $50.00 (Rare Editions)

Singapore $10,000.00 (Front) Reproduction

Singapore $10,000.00 (Back) Reproduction

WARNING - The above currency collections is only for viewing and entertaining purpose. Other illegal activities is prohibited and done at your own risk. Thank you

Okay guys that's all for now... Will update more in time to come yeah.. Cheers and Good Night Everyone... I love you all.. Muackss

Cam Whore... (Me, Me and Me)

2009-11-29T02:39:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone.. Pardon me if you find the following pics damn irritating. Cos it's the picture of me cam whoring by myself. Actually i was damn bored on that day. So i decide to bitch around and take some pic of myself with the things that i cannot live without... Like it or not. It's beyond my juridictions. If you like, i will be happy. If not, then the only word is "SORRY'... Hope you like it... Enjoy...

Some abstract drawing of my Name

This is me Ryan'iel Bae

Kiss me through the phone...hahaha

Acting Cute with that little Chinese Hat...hehe

In my New Shades that my Mum Give Me

Me... Acting Shocked... As If... hahaha

Me Smiling for the Camera

Now who's dat Behind me acting cute huh...

Me and My Cousin Jana (The girl dat has been acting cute behind me...haha)

A Gift from a Friend... (Hair Straightener)

Me with my (Sony Walkman Wireless MP3)

I really cannot live without my MP3

My daily routine of applying (Olay Night Moisturiser)

Me with Edited Background...

Well readers... Thats all for today.. So sorry for being damn irritating... I just cant help it...hahaha. I love taking pics of myself cos i believe it can give me an idea of improving my style and looks in the future. Whatever it is, i hope that you will give me some comment and feedback on how to improve my skin texture and to enhance it radiance. All comments will be greatly appreciated. Do post ur comments @ the (C-Box) which are located at the right hand corner of this page yeah.. Last but not least, I love all of you...

MUACKKKSSS

Another Random Pics

2009-11-29T02:06:00.001+08:00

Dear Readers.. The following are some pics that i took while being away form blogging. Nothing special. Just some random pics.. So enjoy yeah..

Me day dreaming @ Bukit Batok R.C

This is My Brother Vincent. (Seems like he's dreaming too huh.)

Me with a bottle of Cordon Bleu... (Hmmm.. I Loike..)

How dare he drag my precious Cordon Bleu... (Just Joking)

Me singing at a Karaoke Session..

Me & Azree Cyruz (My old time friend) @ The Karaoke Session

Me & Jana (My Dearest Cousin) @ The Karaoke Session

Introducing My Dearest Sister Ann

Me @ My Cousin Rino Pre Wedding Preparations

Finally... Me in a Prada Shades... (Nice rite... I like it so much...)

So sorry if my post is boring. Well i've been so busy with work lately that i hardly have time to update my latest happenings. But be assured that in time to come, i will update it frequently yeah.. I really hopes that you guys will never get tired of reading my blog post... Thats all for now... Good Night... Muackss

Boat Series Singapore Currency Collections

2009-11-19T00:27:00.003+08:00

Dear readers

The following are the "Boat Series" Singapore currency collections that I've promised to upload. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as i do yeah... Enjoy..

Singapore $1.00 (We still see this around rite?)

Singapore $2.00 (Purple Edition)

(This collection is slowly being replaced by the Mr Yusof Ishak collections 'Plastic Editions')

Singapore $2.00 (Orange)

(This piece is replaced with the 'Purple Edition' because it is always mistaken with a $10.00 which have a color similar to this)

Singapore $5.00

Singapore $10.00

(This piece have similar colour to the 'Orange Edition' of the $2.00 note when folded)

Singapore $25.00 (Limited Edition)

(I am sure lots of you guys never seen this collection of $25.00 before rite? It is one of the Limited edition collections)

Singapore $50.00 (Plastic Edition) (Limited Edition)

Singapore $50.00

WARNING - The above currency collections is only for viewing and entertaining purpose. Other illegal activities is prohibited and done at your own risk. Thank you

Next up will be the "Orchid Series" which is the final set of collections that i have.. so keep a look out yeah..

Okay guys that's all for now... Will update more in time to come yeah.. Cheers I love you all.. Muackss

Random pics on Vincent Birthday

2009-11-19T00:12:00.001+08:00

Dear Readers... The following few pictures are some of the Random pics that i took before Vincent's17th Birthday celebrations. So sorry that it took so long for me to upload it because I've been very busy with my daily errands. So do enjoy yeah...

Me @ Ben's house while waiting for 'Ben' to get ready

This is 'Ben' dat I'm talking about...

A Bottle of Cordon Bleu @ Ben's house

Me on the phone with Vincent...

This is my Gift for Vincent for his Birthday. I have one exactly like this but mine is Lime Green. Hopes Vincent will like it..

Edmund @ Void deck while waiting for Vincent...

Finally the Birthday Boy (Vincent Chan)...

Ben wearing my G2000 Blazer...

Vincent posing for the Camera with his new Jacket...

Well readers, that's all that i have to share for now as the net is damn lag at this time... Aaarrggghhh...

And it took a whole 1 hour just to upload this few pics..Gosh...

The next time i will upload some other random pics that I've took while I'm away from blogging.

Nothing interesting.. Just some pics of me cam whoring and as I've mentioned in my previous post that i will upload the next series of currency collections.

I'll do it soon yeah..real soon.

so do keep checking my blog out for some new changes yeah... Love you all.. Muackss

Bird Series Singapore Currency collections

2009-11-14T13:10:00.001+08:00

DeAR Readers..

This is my private collections of (Bird Series) Singapore Dollar... Enjoy...

Singapore $1.00

Singapore $5.00

Singapore $20.00

Singapore $50.00

Singapore $100.00

WARNING - The above currency collections is only for viewing and entertaining purpose. Other illegal activities is prohibited and done at your own risk. Thank you

(The next, i will showcase the "Boat Series" Currency collections) so do check out soon yeah...