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| Me, Myself and I |
A very good evening everyone. I am so sorry dat i was unable to update anything for the past few days due to my overly hectic schedule at work. The followings posting are the latest updates on what has been happening lately..
The year 2010 has come to an end and many of us have our individual wishes for the New Year (2011): Good Health, World Peace, Financial Stability & Success, Quit Smoking, To Lose Weight, Better personal Relationship etc etc.
Some people deem this moment an appropriate one to review their past year's achievement, and to see which aspect of their lives might need improvement.
While some may stick to the New Year resolutions they make, while other's break them. It is good to make resolutions. But why wait 365 days to do it? It is common for those who make such resolutions to break them just a few days or weeks later.
Take me for an example. Last year i vows to quit smoking and to lose 8 kg's of my weight in 6 month. Now 6 month later, i am still smoking actively every single day at (1 pack of 20 sticks per day) and gained 3 kg's of body weight (WTF!!) . No one can ever predict what the future has in store for us. And it makes me realise that if we want to make some changes in our lives, be it negative or positive, we can do it at any time of the year. (No need to wait for New Year any resolutions or anything) as long as we do it with strong determinations. We will be able to achieve anything.. ANYTHING...
Our desire and determinations to get rid of negative habits and, at the same time, improve our well-being should be ongoing. We do not have to wait for a certain time of the year to take up such challenges. And if we fail along the way, we should pick ourself up and move on.
"Never ever let a setback pulls you down. Instead make it as a lifeline and treat it as a lesson learn to push you up"
Waiting a whole year just to make resolution is not only senseless, but may worsen the situation. A person addicted to gambling or alcohol should kick such undesirable habits as soon as possible. Any delay or waiting for the "PROPER" time to do so could be DISASTROUS.
It is all right for people who cannot fulfil their resolutions if they have tried their best. But it's a different story for those who does not even making any effort. Whether this year turns out the way you want will depends on your Resolutions - and Determinations.
But i am not denying the fact that that this year, i've set a few specific target to meet in changing my life around. And i am determine to work damn hard in making my wishes for this new year as a reality.
Last Year Countdown (2009), i always say to myself that year (2010) WILL be a better year for me. But in the end, alot of unplesant things happens to me. And i am sure i've mentioned it in my last post for 2010. And this year, i say the same thing for 2011. (I was really hoping that 2011 will be a much better year for me and for everyone).
I am not denying that 2010 also marks a milestone in my career achievement. For an example, while working for K&N (Kuehne & Nagel) for their Marina Bay Sands Hotel Project, I was promoted from a mere installation crew to the position of Assistant Tower Manager. (A position to be desired that holds high respect and responsibility) managing a team of 30 worker under my command in less then 1 month. All thanks to my sheer hardwork and dedication that i managed to achieve it. (Too bad that once the project ended, i was left jobless for a couple of month) how i wished dat i save up all my pay to upgrade myself instead of partying almost every week.. GOD DAMN IT..
Then i landed in various part time jobs to sustained my expensive lifestyle of shopping and never ending partying before landing myself at N.O.V (National oilwell Varco). At first i realy love my job at N.O.V that i put my everything into my job. I dedicate myself to all work related issues. Then i was offered to be converted as full-time company staff (That comes with numerous benefits) But little did i expect that the place was a HELL-ON-EARTH. All thanks to the idiot moronic barbarian bastard (ISFENDI SALLEH) that i lost all interest in that job after barely 6 month there. I lost my cool and off i went to being jobless again.
I seek comfort on the fact that i am a very hardworking individual who always do my job to the best of my ability. And it'll be easy for me get another job anytime. (All the people around me tell me that i don't have to worry because i deserve to be treated better elsewhere) Thanks god for all the prayers and support of those around me i land myself at another job.
All thanks to my previous boss (Mr Hideito) from (Hasse) who have never given up on me. Due to his strong reccomendations, i land myself into a very good job at (Weatherford Asia Pacific) An Oilfield Company located at Loyang Offshore Supply Base. But the only problem is that the distance for me to travel to work was damn far. (Try to imagine travelling everyday from Mon-Fri from Lakeside to Loyang) Whatever it is, i shall be patience. Who knows this time this is the right one for me. (Even though it's still to early to tell, but i shall preserve and work damn hard and prove my worth) I hope that this time round, alot of opportunity will come knocking by before i actually decide on my lifelong career journey.
Now we are in the year 2011. It means i'm gonna turn 29 years old this year. (1 more year and i'm gonna turn 30) As the saying goes, "Time waits for no man" i have not much time left to think about what i actually wanted in life. It's time for me to broadened up my ideas and put it into actions. I must do something about my life. I don't want to be stuck as what i am now. I must do something. I must upgrade myself and i must achieve it in the shortest time possible. And i give myself 1 year at most to decide what i want. After that it's all about actions only. (I hope god the almighty wil guide me through this phase) May i achieve my dreams and be a very sucessful person in whatever i choose to do.. AMIN...
To add up on what i mentioned earlier about RESOLUTIONS, i have a few to add.
1) Get my Bike (Gilerra ST200) As soon as possible. Latest by May 2011.
2) Enroll in BCSS, OPCSS, SSS courses Latest By Dec 2011
3) Get my Class 3 driving licence latest by June 2012
4) Quit Smoking By December 2011 (First i must cut down my intake)
5) Be an active GYM member and work out my muscle especialy my Abs, Chest & Arms
6) Cut down my frequent partying and drinking
7) Save up at least 50% of my monthly income at a fixed savings deposit account
8) Get my own cosy rented apartment latest by June 2012.
9) Change my whole wardrobe
10) Find time and save up to travel around on Back Packing Trip
11) Be a better Muslim, Better Son, Better Citizen & Better Man
(Insyallah with God (ALLAH) help and guidance, i'll be able to achieve all the above..)
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| Me & Fai Edited |
Phew! what a long list i have above huh! Well it's not impossible to achieve it as long as i work hard with determination and patience, i'll be able to achieve it in no time. But at the same time, i also need the help and support of all my friends, families and loved ones.
Relationship wise, i've had my up's and down's. I've had my fair share of sadness and dissapointments. And all that have tought me a very valuable lesson. (Not to put my 100% into anything) afraid that i might get hurt. Well i've not given up on love just yet. Even though i don't deny that being an AJ (GAY) is not that easy (Especially in this typical singapore where most of the boys are materialistic, holistic, vain, out to have fun only, looks really really matters etc etc)
There is still some good soul out there somewhere. And i say this is because, there is still one kind soul who have always been there for me. Patiently waiting with his arm wide open. Loving and caring for me, Loving me & Never got tired of me. That person is none other then my Boyfriend (EUGENE LIM). Despite my coldness towards him, he have never given up on me. Infact it makes his love towards me stronger. Thank you Eugene. I Love you alot. But i hope you'll change yourself for our sake. I am not being selfish towards you. But i want you to be a better person in life and in this relationship. I hope our relationship will be an everlasting one. I Love You Darling.
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| Me & My BF (Eugene Lim) |
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| Us Again @ Siloso Beach Party 2010 |
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| Us Cam Whoring |
And for the rest of them who does not make it into my heart, i can only say thanks to you too for teaching me a good lesson that you guys cannot be trusted. I don't lost anything cos thanks god i have everything. But what did you have? "NOTHING" and on top of having nothing, you guys lost me. you guys lost my trust and you guys got everything to lose cos you guys lost someone who have the ability to love you whole heartedly.
"If you cant accept me for my worse, you definitely don't deserve me for my best"
Well dats all for now as i am quite tired after a hard day at work. I will update more soon when i have the free time ok. Below are some pics taken at this year New Year Countdown. I need not elaborate further as the picture tells a thousand words. Enjoy it Everyone.. (Happy New Year Everyone)..
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| Ryan, Fai, Brad & Eugene Wrist Tag |
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| Me, Shaha & Lizza In Coach Bus |
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| Me and Eugene |
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| Sneak Preview of Me |
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| Lizza Act Cute Huh!! |
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| Me & ShaSha |
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| Picture Perfecto Huh! |
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| Edited Me & Lizza Pocahontas |
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| Me & Halim @ Pre Party Sessions |
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| Eugene & Lizza (Pocahontas) |
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| Ooops!! What's in the pocket? Oh! Ohh!! |
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| Wide Smile of Mine |
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| Me & Sha-Sha (My Childhood Fren) |
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| Eugene & Ryan Hiroshi |
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| The 4 Muskeeters!! LoLx |
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| Me (Ryan) & My Sister (Ann) |
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| The 3 Stooges!! Hahahak |
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| Biting our Tix (Siloso Beach Party 2010) |
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| Me & My Bro (Faizal ID) |
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| Ryan & Lizza (Sweet Ehk?) |
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Drink, Drank & Drunked Me (WTH!)
Do visit often as there will be more interesting updates to come especially in this new year (2011). A brand new day, a brand new year, A brand new me with a brand new vision)
Lots Of Love From Me To You
Signing Off : Ryan Hiroshi |
my say at 1/04/2011 11:18:00 PM.
