A very good evening everyone.
I know it has been a while since i last update my blog (I mean really really update it). I am terribly sorry for it cos for past few weeks, It has been a terrible downturn for me. I was stressed, frustrated, angry and terribly sick. I guess i need not elaborate further on it cos it'll just add salt to the open wound.




Well! As i've mentioned,  i've been sick for the past 1 week. High fever, Flu, Cough, Body Ache etc etc. And i think it was a caused of a viral infections. (Dunno where the hell did i get that from.. SHIT!!)  And i did not go to work for many days due to my conditions. (All thanks to the freaking FEVER) And i really feel very bad about it. I feel guilty towards my friend (Ah Tong) who is still opening up the job for me despite my frequent absence.. (FML!!) I am so afraid of losing my job again. (I still couldn't get over the N.O.V incident.. FUCK YOU "ISFENDI SALLEH" I curse you rot in hell!!) 




No matter what, sick or not, i have to push myself to go to work. I couldn't afford to be jobless cos i'm sure everyone are aware that i am a very independent sort. And i never rely on my family for anything. Infact i've been living independantly eversince i was 15 years old. And i intend to maintain it dis way for as long as i live. (Never ever to rely on anyone. But MYSELF)

All the thing dat i ever owned in the past, the present and hopefully in the future is all from the fruits of my labour. My sheer hardwork. My sweat and blood. I dun like to rely on anyone cos i believe in attaining satisfactions of pampering myself after working damn hard.

This month is a super freaking fucked type month for me. I hate it to the core and seriously, I super hate 2010. Alot of unpleasant things occurs dis year especially this month. I just hope dat as 2010 end, all the unpleasant things will vanish together with it.


Today is 21 December 2010 and in 10 days time as the clock strike midnite, It marks the new year. (2011). I really really hope that 2011 will be a much better year for me and everyone around me. I'll just hope for the best and expect for the worst.

I VOWS TO 
1) Work Damn Hard, Earn Much More & Save More (For my Future)
2) Be a better person then what i am now (Spiritually)
3) Quit smoking (Since Last Year I Tried Unsucessfully)
4) Cut down on my partying (Less Drinking + Less Partying = Less Spending)
5) Find time to go for a backpacking trip (All Around Asia)
6) Start saving up for my dream car & House
7) Be a better son towards my mother (I've been very bad this year)
9) Be a good Boyfriend towards the lucky ones.. (Whoever he is, he knows it)

May God Answer All My Prayers And Makes My Wish Come True... Amin


And at the same time, i also hopes for world peace and harmony. May the hunger will have food to eat, The jobless have jobs to earn, The Poor to get out of poverty and live normally, The Rich become more generous towards the unfortunate, The heartbroken are mended, The tears become laughter and All sadness vanish and eventually become Happiness.. Amin..


Well peeps!! I also would like to add up that i've met someone who love me alot. I feel so lucky but at the same time i feel guilty too cos i've not been treating him right. I dunno what is wrong with me. I've always say that (It's better to be loved then to love someone) But in the end i just literally waste it. I dunno what should i do. I'll just leave it open as it is and hopes time will change everything. (God Please Guide Me On This Please.. Amin)

To that person, i love you alot. It's just dat i dunno how to show it to you. I dun expect you to change for me. But at the very least, change it for us please. Change for the sake of our future. (You know who you are) and i am pretty sure most of my friends and relative know who exactly who you are cos i've been mentioning ur name alot lately. I just wanna tell you dat i love you so much and hopes it'll get further then what it is now..

Well dats all i can say for now.. Till we meet again in my next posting ok. I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone a

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Name: Ryan'iel Hiroshi
Known As: Ryan'iel, Ryan or Afad
Day I first cried: 1st August 1982
Race: Mixed Portuguese, Malay and Hispanic
Faith: Islam
Status: Single (And available, Ready to mingle)
Profession: Asst Tower Manager (MBS)
Scene: Alternative
Style: Modern Trendy
Height: 1.68
Weight: 65kg
Complexion: Fair Complexion
Hairstyle: Trendy short, Colourful
Eyes: Black
Tattoos: Lots of it
Piercing: Both earlobes
Smoking Habit: Occasionally
Drinking Habit: Occasionally
Best Attributes: Smile, Humour & Intelligence
Hobbies: Cycling, Swimming, Jogging, Tanning, Shopping, Reading, Travelling and surfing the net.


Flamboyant, Down to earth, Clean freak, Cool, Funny, Extroverted, Friendly, Romantic, Loving, Passionate, Honest and Generous

Dat's how I extend myself 2 the world with the same basic expectations of others who wish 2 return the same courtesy.

Dat said, I pride myself in being more proactive & rational in understanding all the different charms and cultures. Never been satisfied with my own perspectives, I am usually a keen learner of different ideas - approaching them with respect, tact & an open mind.

Conflicts are usually handled objectively with diplomatic end in mind. Don't be put off by my eloquence & flamboyant character as it usually rewards more than it punish. I am comfortable in being affectionate & I am not afraid 2 show others that I care. A few kind words, a reassuring hug & compliments to go along are few ways to let my compassion show.

While I am a high maintenance guy with my vanity obsession, I have come 2 acquire a new level of appreciation 4 a no-fuss, low-drama approach with minimum “Boo-hoos” & maximum “Oh-yeah”. I may exude catlike playfulness & being mischievous at times, there lies a sentimental intellectual beneath the mild demeanour.

I don't believe in intellectual superiority though, only dormant potential in every person. Hence, there is no room for arrogance, segmented respect or condescending attitude.

My Biggest lesson in love is to “Forgive and forgo the loser.”
My Biggest lesson in life is to “Live life to the fullest and having No regrets.”

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